2712 - 2602

IT'S OVER.

if you are wondering.. we're over. ): sob, sob. but then, i'm so totally moving on. gotta understand me, i need freedom and space. so, sorry haikal.

haha. i know you're wondering why i'm suddenly blogging this late, late news. but then, the room where my computer was, had a short-circuit. (: blame the faulty electrical wires. dad's going to fix it, so right now.. i won't be blogging much, i'm at school. at the computer lab, level two. with suzie right here beside me. (: so comfortable with the aircon and a friend to be your companion and trusty sidekick. nu'man is such an ass. walking around with this soppy face.

we had our EL week, so awesome. had our assembly with the upper secondary. interhouse competition against Victors, Winners, Achievers and Strivers. V and W were tied up. hooray for greeny house. previously there was a performance. it was awesome. got the rahman/t guy sing, ajim and khair.. my favourite was definetely qassy, since i knew him.. as a friend. haha. (: altered my skirt already, going to make it shorter. mwahahahas. okay, school's for another week. after that, i'm going to try and ask zahrin oouut ! i miss abang ain so, so muchy much. wheeee ~! suzie is crazy, yay. my prepaid kinda low. yes, it's a disappointment. WAHAS. just text me lorr. oh yeah. i tegured khairi just now. said "Hi, and boboi mana?". he seemed shocked, haha. dahliia told me about boboi. MWAHS. kekes. (:

i wanna stop here. hope my new skin is not that bad. i know it's not nice arr. but then, for temporarily only. so, till here. going to try mee best in HTML. DAAAA~!

there's no HAI in DEE already.

i might as well had.

hey, hey.

it's almost 1pm. i know it's too early to be blogging. BORED !

chatting with hanii, my whore. & the cuteycute chipmunk. (: shared my problems with my whore, and chatted with chipmunk. about our studies. WAHAHAS. weird right. we're improving, but then, Jannah, keep it up ! especially in npcc. you're a better cadet then i am, since i left the squad and all. listening to the fallen (franz ferdinand). lame song, but the lyrics are quite funky.

so they say you're a troubled boy, just because you liked to destroy.
i like the "WAHOO" in their song. let me try saying that. WAHOO! WAHOO! kekes.

ahaha. i know, the song in my blog very lame. but it's cute, dunt you think so? gah. my mom bossing me around. my grandmother's coming. yay, yay. nenek kucing coming from teluk blanga. miss her, hope she brings nana along. okay, i'm gonna stop here. i'll post another today if there's another highlight in mind.

i watched WWERAW two nights ago.
here are some of the results;
RVD VS SHNITSKY. RVD WON.
splendid headscissors ! his first match after re-appearing on WWE. and he won ! but his frog splash sure did hurt him.
HHH VS CHAVO GUERERRO. HHH WON.
chavo got pinned right after a pedigree. hhh couldn't get his anger out on the late eddie guerrero because he didn't get himself into wrestlemania. gah. eddie guererro got nothing to do with this. people remorsed about him because they had symphathy, not because of the talents he had. tsk, tsk. hhh, you're so low. you can't vent your anger on eddie guererro, or rey mysterio, you went after the next best thing. tsk, tsk.
SHELTON BENJAMIN VS GOLDUST. SHELTON BENJAMIN WON !!
shelton benjamin. mumma's boy but with quick moves. he can be tied up between enthu like lashley & stronger then orlando jordan. he won, haha. who knows, mumma's boy can beat the natureboy.
KANE& BIGSHOW VS CARLITO& CHRIS MASTERS.
they attacked kane's shoulders. the masterlock was very effective, as he took advantage on kane's shoulder. big show also got masterlocked, but then, it didn't even reached his fingers. masters getting better, while carlito sucked more.
EDGE VS JOHN CENA.
cena won, i think. like d'oh. if he can keep the title for 10 months, why can't he be superior?! after edge stole his title, he got it back in less then a month. (:
then the TRISH STRATUS CELEBRATION.
lame. ashley finally confronted mickie james on how pyscho she was. trish wanted to agree, but she kept quiet. in the end, ashley got attacked. but then i think, trish was on her side. the crowd was right. "SHE'S A PYSCHO."

long post, right? i'm going to stop here anyways. (:
school tomorrow !!

threw your love away [?]

I see that it is easy for you to blame everything on me.
If that's the case I should go have my fun,
and do all the things you say I do.
Boy, I can't continue to take this from you.

If you don't promise me that you've changed your ways,
I'm leaving today.
And I ain't coming back.
And you made it like that.
Was unfair to me.
All this jealousy?

i should've cheated (keyshia cole).

beautiful song.
I AM GOING TO IGNORE THE PREVIOUS TAGS. and only listen to what WEEN, Jannah, dahliia and wirr said. ;P WEEN, yuk. kami berfikir tentang masalah kami dahulu. buatlah pilihan yang betul.

thanks people. tag, tag. flood, flood.

went out shopping with my mom& the little rascal.
had dinner at kampung chai chee restaurant at telepark. there was this guy sitting at the other table, cute siaa. he picked up the car irfaan threw. woww! got 10BUCKS from my grandmother's relative. yay, yay. money to spend. saving it up for *SECRET PLAN.
wakduh. udah masa 10:53 malam. ibu masih mengomel. wakduh, sakitnya telinga gwe. udahlaa. cukuplaa. gwe udah capek banget. diam sahja dong. wakduhh.

texting dahliia. haha. what a chica. asked me questions, and told me all those exploited stuffs. boboi's and adik's. terrible people. what fricking people. haha. well, goodluck with hadi. or, whatever his name was. i forgot. (:

i basically had a good day. content with getting 10BUCKS. now, i have 12BUCKS. saving it up for my *SECRET PLAN. hoping dad would give me more, since he got 1000BUCKS for his 20years of dedication in Vopak. i want 50BUCKS. haha. too much too ask? to buy eyeliner, since maa took my maybeline auto. want a new one. hymmpfghs. and money for the *SECRET PLAN. ilyas is sick. haha. served him right for not having sex. poor thing he's got a high fever. ;P it's 11:06pm. i want to stop here. so bummed out. TOOOOOOOOOOTLES. (:

i had a good day, but it turned sour when the moon rose.

• i need good grades and good behaviour, or else no more school. "waste of money".

undeserving me, or them? they expect me to study AND jaga irfaan. when i study, they ask me to jaga irfaan, when i want to play with him, i was forced to study. TORMENTS. i'm here, and my mom is sleeping. fuck her.

• a breakdown of a friendship.

hais. it's broken, but it can be fixed. it's ripped away, but it can be mended. tears and smiles, they don't mean anything to you? tears are pain. joys are illusions? i still won't give up. i care for you.

• depression.

i'm so stressed with studies, and this rascal. & after hearing biscuit's problem, i was cut DEEP. tsk, tsk. the whole world singing into the blues for DEE. -_-* god, cure my pain.

suiciding is a good thought. it was not bad at all. i'll quit my sins, and serve hell first. the more years, the more sins. the more sins, the more pain. hais. thank god my brain still works. i'm not that stupid for DEATH. ilyas crossed me out. he made me laugh. damn him. and haha, alot of people remembered OUR ANNI. touched.

it's like that.

Maybe I'm just living out the same old stories in and out
But you know that don't make it easier
Time will fly away with me if truth won't stop and let me see
And tell me I am to believe that you and I should never be again
I'm drowning
When the one you leave is the one thing you believe
You say goodbye when underneath’s your one belief
That love rules all, conquers all

haha. drowing (missyhiggins).

boring songs, but good english. (: currently listening to like that (bep feat, more artists).
chatted with abang ain. miss, miss him so much. feeling better to know as he ever cared. he misses me too. yeah, yeah. after i'm OFF grounded, want to meet him. miss yoou. finally, end of the week. got only maths homework& mr saiful asked us to get rid of the books under the tables. brought home 11 thick and heavy books ytd. -_-* WE.missagnes, yunru, sue, ween& i, asked the teacher/ librarian about joining library. yay, yay ! lame cca, but at least i won't be CCAless. wonder if my mom would bring me out tmr. been a mere week since i've stayed home. torture, pure torment. oh well, what to do. prison life is dee's life. school was GRReat. it was the first thing that sets me OFF. weekends are coming. yay, yay. (:

english; was crap. had a poOp quiz. mr saiful is so, so annoying. and i scored 22/ 30 for my previous essay-writing class test.
project work;awesome. learnt new skills using Adobe. & i almost kicked KUDA's dick.
recess; boring. didn't eat much. not dieting, self-torture.
maths; awesome. mr lim was being extra nice. he gave me notes, about ratio& algebra factorisation. he was being EXTRA nice, just for answering a few sums. YEY.
art; was fun, fun! did a "still-life observational drawing" of a glass bottle. i quickly grabbed the Carlsburrg bottle. my art skills weren't good, but got tips from loads of people. matthew blushed in pink just now. how touched was i! keewee told me, and i surely did realise. haha.
home room; mr saiful didn't yap much. good start for a good morning and a good friday. (:

happy two months to me and haikal. YAYS. (:
arghs ! abang ain is back online. miss, miss you so much. my day was pretty good. hope that i get CCA'ed. toOoOodles. DAAA~

the ghost of treason.

quit the pretence. yeah, yeah.

haha. gathering the negative side of me. (:
history ct was like WHOAH !

i got like, so freaked. the multiple-choice questions. only thirteen questions i knew. not saying i'm positively sure i'm right, but those were the exact same questions in our previous class test ! only question eight and nine bummed me out.
The British surrendered on the 15th of Feb in ______ in Bukit Timah.
Guess the answer ! secondary two, normal academic history. (:

i think i can score good for my mcq. there was no source-based questions ! creepy. the structured-essay questions. i did about IR instead of question two. haha. stupid, i regret ! WWI easier. so happy with history ct. just wish me luck. *wish, wish&wish*. okay? haha. shakinah approached me. asked me if i wanted to join cheers. haha. i DO. but then, aiyahs. all secondary ones. never mind, last year was pure fun. (: there's this secondary one grrl. hidayu of 1a2. my fourth floor neighbour, pretty and sweet ! saw shinx just now. at seven am already go ride motorcycle. hurhurs. science practical ! nice. nice NICE! not that i was sharing the same table with sue, i got to share it with ween too. chuan ya joined us. was fun. we did an experiment, on changes, chemical or physical. we had to heat up a piece of magnesium ribbon, sodium chloride(aka, salt). something something carbonate. forgot. it's green in colour. haha. and ooh, iodine. we had to heat 'em up. salt got no change. magnesium got like, burn. the green carbonate thingy turned to black. and iodine, haha. released gas. matthew liked to pour the gas out. it's funky purple, but poisonous. washing the testubes were more torture. esp scrubbing wendy's group's tt. my hand got iodine remains. itchy, then now. all in my skin, have to wait a few days before it hilang. mr saiful was an ass, as usual. wahahas. i went to a website about html tutoring. (: learnt alot. go my old blog, brokenragdoll-wishes. i did that page by myself, without no one's help. wahahas. hubby's offline. & my prepaid is low. hymmpfghs ! eh, i think i bragged too much. btw, mariam put her hands around my neck and on my shoulders. eh, we're not bestfriends ! just classmates. anyone who saw, pls understand! i got kicked by that shawn. for poking him, got kicked. i also knew something. that JI hao is related to wenda. haha. eh, i stop here. depressingly happy. bapa sedang mengomel. so, SHH and BYE!

too many problems.

so sick of love songs.

(: hey, hey hey.

i'm feeling quite content. my mood following the songs from my RBCplaylist. now it's playing so sick (neyo). whohoo. "i'm so over being blue. so sick of love songs. so done with wishing you were still here. so sick of love songs. so sad and blue." haha. sue cried today ! cute siah. like a five year old. gahahas. my brain is so tired. science was boring. it was about sound. then mr cheah opened an application. the sound, irritating siah. he said there's practical lessons tomorrow. boy, i'm so excited. gahs ! i want sue to be my partner. pls, pls? haha. i got 27/ 40 for my english common test. depressing mark, right? and like that, i was THIRD IN CLASS ! faliq was first, 29. followed by ameer, 28. then me. depressing marks. now mr saiful wants ALL my compositions. gah ! my parents are super-duper dumb. the phone was busy ringing, but there's no one on the other line. then want to fuss about it ! what the hell sial. YOU can actually get the phone yerself. hope you guys turn to super-duper retards before you guys reach fifty. annoying motherfuckers. buzz out from my life.

abang ely is getting "married" tonight, and his gonna make love too. gahas. find out his mystery bride. you'll be shocked ! (: my lips are sealed. music was RATHER interesting. mrs lee was telling us about the Phantom of the Opera. i think it's cool to be a retard, and then wear a shiny mask upon your face. dunt you think so? the phantom of the opera, was also a ventrewhatwhatlist ar. the ones like those people who talk for those dummies. haha. cool, right? my lips are sealed, but my voice still goes on. i want to know more about phantom of the opera. cute mask, that's all ! then had our ct. geography, i thought i could not cope. i answered all the questions as instructed. the more marks they're giving, the longer i wrote. gah ! wish me luck for my geography. GOD, I SUPER-DUPER HATE MY PARENTS TO THE CORE. JUST SHUT UP ! YOU GUYS AIN'T WORTH MY TIME. SO BUZZ OFF! BETTER NOT, KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE ! stupid people. -_-* ) the most sickening homosapiens on earth. presenting..*drumroll*. my parents ! i gotta stop here. super-duper dad is annoying me. and i'm feeling VERY, VERY paranoid. change of mood ! god damn it. sickening people !
tomorrow is History CT! wish me luck, again. PLS !
yeah. i told agnes i'd cross out on art club. but now i think that's my final decision. library got sickening wong bo. av club, like kental. so i'm gonna ask the art teacher. wish me luck. DAA~

betapa sakit hatiku ini. F is with S?

hey.

feeling so bummed out. i'm actually exhausted + feeling bummed out! tired of studying all day in school. and bummed out as i found out this F guy was with the S grrl. & i'm pretty worried about hubby. he's not online, not as he used to be. i skipped maths supplementary class today. i doubt it was worth it! (: hey, so bummed after studies + must continue it after school. it was utter excuse. PROFOUND ! didn't had our science practical thou. was upset, because science theory lessons are tickets to tears. how bored was i. sitting alone, and copying crap which wunt help me a single bit in life. then had our literature. got 18 /25. uber disappointed for scoring quite a low mark. i was expecting 20! but then, nobody has their day everyday. unless you get what i mean. maths was boring, like d'oh. ate the rice and chicken from the western stall. i swore i got real bloated up. then had our malay. only do a couple of corrections and a few kosa katas. lame. + PROFOUND ! i thought time would stop during geography, which was later on. passed my second paper for the day. it was great. 19.5 /25. didn't expect to score in geography too. two whole periods of snoozefest was quite worth it. wish me luck for my common test tmr! (: cme was QUITE okay. better then being stuck on my ass in the hall. set up my goals. saying i'd want to improve on my english skills, my selfish attitude & have more friends. lame right? like a goody-too-shoes grrl. blwueeks ! then we had to do some stating down, in groups. write down what is poor social behaviour. mr saiful called us trios, budak Ks. what an ass. i kick your fLat ass then you know. he also tegur'd me about the way i walked. geez. walk also cannot slack is it? then we had to pledge to NOT DO what was poor social behaviour. haha. it was kinda cute. the way we pledged. the trios, i mean. haha. then we lepak'd for a while. till 2:30pm, then we went home. shinx got mc. still sick perhaps. haha. well, i'm going to study my geography later. followed by a quick revision of my maths. i'm still bummed out thou.

GOSH. I MISS HUBBY SO MUCHY MUCH. BYEEE !
ps: AV club, librarian or art club?

an honest mistake.

dunt look at me that way.
it was an honest mistake.

hello. hello. nyeahahas.

dunt know what honest mistake i did. (: so far, internet explorer users might be able to listen to the song i've just put on my blog. i'm sorry that i'm using mozilla firefox. an honest mistake by the bravery. beautiful people! (: went home straight after school. good grr! after the bell rang, went home straight. reached home at around 1.50pm. what a record for being home so early. hoho. yeah, biscuit was right. sitting home was a bore for me. since i got grounded, all i do is lie around and watch tellyv. i'm better off at school. OR so i thought.. school was crap. waited for sue and ween, as per normal. but only today, they had to wait for me. hurhur. then had our maths. i totally coped with lim's lesson! for the first time, i actually paid attention. (: then had our recess. ate chicken rice, for the first time too! haha. & had some lemon tea and seaweed too. then had our dNt. the stupid badut didn't came to school. only miss shah relieved, whoever she was. what a bore! i hung around with biscuit and khairul. well, i'm getting closer & closer with biscuit! sat with the buncha bananas. PURE fun. talked about WWE and hair. and much, much more. nyeahahas. was surprised YET upset when i found out he was going out with faizah. moronic bitcher. your a year younger than faizah. -_-*) yeah, was upset. but he kept disturbing me about saying "dooope". geez. i hate faizah, with no real specific reasons. PROFOUND. then after dNt, had our boring science lessons. paid superb attention. about combustion, thermal decomposition and.. uuh. dunt remember what else. having our practical science lesson FOR THE FIRST TIME TMR! never gonna miss that. i <3 practical lessons. hope that my partner is going to be sue again. what fun we had last year. what fun we had sitting together, making jokes. and breaking stuffs. with the same old darren and veggietarian. wahas. *fingers crossed*. chatting with abang ely. ekhems. not nice calling him abang. (: then after science, had our mother tongue. uber boring. sat with rabbit nenek. tehee! did a "surat tak rasmi". what's the point. we use e-mail instead of pen and papers now. just incinerate those things. waste paper only. and whoever is that "mamat, sepupuku". i thought malay would never end. but then, it did. we walked the whole bunch with mr saiful. hahas. sue tegured about him wearing hipster. hahas. it sure did shut him up. sat alone in class. dayah, come back! i miss you. after suspension, be a good grr. all right? i miss having a partner. i'm the only singleton in class, you know! hymmpfghs. did another subject-verb agreement worksheet. they still haven't "mastered" it. it's so easy. gosh, start something new mr saiful! you're beginning to bore me. having a maths class test, followed by science too on the 2nd of march. hope you 2a1s be prepared. oh yeah. and GEOGRAPHY COMMON TEST & HISTORY COMMON TEST is this week. for the normal as. that's all i know. (: study hard dear damaians. hey, i've posted too long. i've bragged enough. i'll stop here. oh yeah. I'M STILL WAITING DEAR SKWIRREL. FOR YOUR PHOTOSHOP CD. HURRY UP FATIN AND NASIERAH. GAAH! bye.

super DEE duper!

hello, hello!

rather in the mood. (: dunt know why, i'm bored. been sitting home this weekend. got grounded, you see. SOBSOB! dad received an award last night. for servicing 20 years in Vopak. like that, he got 1,000$ from his company. with a whole chocx with fudge cake. damn nice sial! and he got this big luggage bag. hahas. i watched WWE SMACKDOWN just now. didn't get to watch who won between Randy Orton and Chris Benoit. it was pure! gotta love MrRKO! dad changed the channel, boy. was i bummed! then i watched a little bit more. JBL and Scotty2Hotty. haha. as always, the Boogeyman has to interrupt. it was rather disgusting watching him eat Julian's disgusting growth. you imagine if a dude comes up to you. licks your infested growth, bites it off. and eats the whole thing! super EWW. blwueks. uber eww. it's almost two in the afternoon, and dad just left. going to watch more tellyv soon. gosh, things have been so bored around here. since i got grounded for life, i found it a big regret! ghees. i'm hungry.. eating the chocx cake alone is not enough. GRR! till here, tootles.

lying on the table, with everything you said.

hey, hey.

making this post short. today was quite crap. (:
my phone almost got confiscated. and for not surrendering it, i was filed into the big ugly red book. for being defiant? mr lim was being unreasonable. besides, lose yourself or your phone. i <3 my phone. it got confiscated EIGHT times. wahas. english was crap! for the first time, i felt it was crap. totally grammar. about subject-verb agreement. as always, tehee. i got most correct. only one mistake. hahas. mr saiful! made me stay back after school, just for being 'defiant'. damai is SUCH, SUCH a sucker. thinking back about my previous school, perhaps saint hilda's wasn't that bad. oh yeah. mr saiful pulled me out, because of the cca-troublemakers. they say i CAN quit npcc. perhaps join something new. art club? or library. nyetnyets. khairi was an ass! total ass. he called me up, and i was standing by the side. then he said it was nothing, and laughed. && i slapped his stomach. wahahas. HEAR THAT NPCC 'CADETS' OF MINE. I CAN QUIT. AND I WANT TO. (: that's all for today. alrightitoes? tootles.

i dunt believe in cam-whoring.

hey.

i'm back. sorry for not blogging. i got sick, and i'm so lazy to post! yeah. so, these past few days. all i did was. go to school, and sleep. go home, eat medicine and sleep till dawn. and repeat it from monday to wednesday. UBER AWESOME! now i think irfaan is sick. wahahas. i'm still having that small cough in the back of my throat. hoho.

okay. went out today. went to TM.
ate at Ljs, while haikal just watch. then we go walk-walk. i made a bracelet. hahas. nice, you know! expensive too. 13.20$ for a black strap with "HAIDEE" on it. (: aku kan kaya. hahas. well, i got broke. instead of having 25$. now i'm left with only TWO$! never mind. went to the arcade. spent three bucks there. played airhockey. nyeahahas. he won the frrst round. i won the second. wahas. chatting with nasWOK! kasi balik! BLWEUGG. hahas. tmr's friday. yayays. english was fun. disappointed i got TWO answers incorrect. but it's so easy! hahas. mariam got remedial. i'm so, so bored. went friendstering.. went bloggering.. arghs. i'll stop here then. nothing much left to say. TOOTLES. &&PEACE.

venom out of my brain.

moo-moo.

i'm sick. yeah, feeling ill. or just an illusion stuck in my head. my head felt rather warm. or so i thought. my body tempr is normal. 37.28 dgr celsius. ((: played in the rain with dear. he made me cry. yeah, he did. because i saw earthworms. and it was disgusting. earthworms! bunch of motherfucking living strings. bluwk. after seeing alot more of worms, quickly jumped onto dear's back. hahas. i hate worms. and those centipidies at damai. blwuks. he made me more grossed and scared when he asked if those thingys went into my feeties. blwuk. texted dahliia too. hahas. she's okay i guess. i'll treasure her, she'll treasure me. hahas. if old friends i got to forget, new friends like her there is. tehee. fyi: i treasure all my friends. and that includes mr grrmany. chatted with khairi for a while. been quite sometime since i did that. he was sick. so i like. patted his head.. "alaa, keciyan khairi". wahahas. biscuit was being an ass. didn't layan me in class. hahas. well, tmr i doubt he would. mr saiful didn't turn up to school. the grammar test was an ass. couldn't get my mind straight. frust up. the substit teacher was an ass. told me to mind my language. whadahell did i say to him. SARCASTICTICTICK. after that had our last lesson of the day. ms syawa didn't come too. had our geogr test also. went home 10 minutes before the bell rang. had our history the lesson before english. was interesting. we saw an interview about elizabeth choy. it was rather sad to hear the story, only shimin cried. hahas. then we had a mini-homework. a short reflection of how you felt after the interview. i did it, half a page in the exercise book. history is much more fun, fun, fun nowadays.

tomorrow is friday. jumaat. ((: going back at 12.30md. whohoo. first period, home room. followed by two periods of art. then one period of maths. recess, then project work, two periods and two periods of english, then go home. whohoo. ehs, i think i wrote too long. sorry, trying to get things out of my mind. feeling "world". THANKS BISCUIT, FOR GIVING ME ALOT OF STUFFS, ESPECIALLY HELPING ME. ((:

you're such a fucker.

heyyo.

Okay, Syafiq. Yes. I admit it, my apologies were sincere. Need you NOT to heran. Asked no one to heran too. There's nothing left for me to say to you, and I don't care about your intentions. Hate me if you want. But Hell, do I care? My blog with my say. Berbual world or not, what does it have on you. It doesn't seem to be troubling me or anybody, why need you to rip it? Come in with the worse intentions. I don't care if you don't come here at all.

School was a bore. Quite a bore. Mr Saiful was absent. Science was crap. Didn't return my book back.. Damn it. History was quite fun. ((: Malay was full of crap, as usual. Had to throw the Shotput just now. My height had a further distance then the put I had thrown. Tehee. Went to Tampines Ctrl just now. ((: Duplicated my key. Since I lost it, that was my responsibility. Went with Haikal, as always. LIKE DOH. One key costed about 2$. Cheap! Walked around TM, looking for Vday gifts. He getting me, I don't know what. He wants a ring with our name engraved on it. But that was utter expense. Hahas. Saw the CRAZY GRR just now. The one and only Siaochotic Jamilah with her boy. hahas. She asked for a HighFIVE. Haha. Chatting with D right now. hahas. Sarah called me a Bitch! She's my #3 WHORE! Having our Grammar test tomorrow. ((: Hope the Sec2NAs studied, (as if). I got to go. Mom threw a fit.

when the truth came out.

Everybody's talking. But they don't say a thing.
They look at me with sad eyes, but I don't need their symphathy.

hehes. the frrst few lines from a song. hahas.
okays. never met Haikal today. miserably bored. he had his Npcc. went to lepak with halloWEEN moo-moo instead. not really lepak, more like study. or tutor. i helped halloWEEN moo-moo with her maths homework. even thou it was due this Thursday, we're not giving any chances. helped her with Algebra. on expanding and factorisation. hahas. i was kinda a good helper, i helped her. and i learnt about new stuffs myself. hahas. we left off at 1515 hrs. went home, it was about 1530hrs. home alone i guess. ma's off to market. papi gave her 50bucks, you see. ((: sister's out, wherever. as if i care about her ass. nabeel looked annoyed. i called him Sudib. wahahas. he was simply annoyed. Sudib. sudu-garpu. pinggan-mangkuk. pots and pans. hahas. stupid cat taught me that. hahas. ((: i didn't cabut malay class. but mr raj and mr saiful thought i did. hahas. i HAD the pass. and i was gone for only 25 minutes. went to look for my book laa damn it! pinky'd mr saiful. not to go in late after classes again. and doing silly things again. nyeahahas. i'm a baGOOD gerr. i'm Haikal's grr. hahas. ((: assembly was lame like ass. had our house meeting. the Victors guys are all full of fcuking stinko. seriously, being honest here! ever heard of deodorant? or perhaps, cologne? the secondary ones are full of shitties. esp, that minah. only secondary one already perangai. tsk, tsk. i wonder if your cousin taught you to be like that. muka baik, perangai sundal. tsk, tsk. hahas. i hate mr ben cheah. he took my personal notebook. it's personal. and he confiscated it. Haikal gave me that one, okay! give it back! and stop reading the insides. fcuk it damn it.. yeah, i admit. i weeped. tehee. ehs, if somebody took your personal thoughts and read it, how would you feel? btw, i was just writing the song lyrics for I Miss You, B182. i hate cikgu su also. such an ass. I WANT CIKGU NETTY!! PLS! hais. i miss her. i miss big brudder, dan too. hais.

Where are you? And I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep. I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always.
The webs from all the spiders.
Catching things, and eating their insides.
Like my indecision to call you.
And hear your voice of treason. Will you come BACK, AND STOP PAIN TONIGHT?

i don't remember when we danced. was it when the wind was blowing, and we were dancing at the void? ahas. touched by your words, still keep it in heart. OSH GOSH BGOSH. hahas. i'm so hungry. mom didn't cook. sobs. well, i'll stop here. my rants are full of crappyness. god damn you. ((:

jinx me, something's crazy.

heyyo.

today was a fab day at school. it wasn't THAT good. it's just interesting. ((: finished my d&t practical. my hammer is superbly kayoutte. it's shiny. hahahas. i took alot of effort to sand it. it's shiny. but now all got scratches. hehehs. ((: mr saiful played with my hammer. hahas. he cut his hair. or so it seems. wore my cute little coat again. hmm. on the way to the workshop, the stupeet babi.. whoever he is. asked me about my boii. BLUWKS. badan besar, awak tiup kita pon tak gentar. nabeel was an ass just now. hehes. went to tampines. lepak'd with haikal.. only. he accidently burnt his bulu tangan. it was a shockingly farni incident. hurhur. went home.. then he topped up his ppd. how to expect me to text when my ppd can't text at all. -_-* ) sayyidi gave me the Ghost man on Third song. finally! hahas. but too bad my WMP spoiled. mozilla also can't open iWebmusic. hympfghs. nasib aku arr. okays. i'll stop here. want to do my maths homework. seriously.. does anybody know; a2b+ab2 = [?]. hahas. Factorise. haiyohs. okays. shh, byes.

beautifully broken.

heyyo.

didn't blog ytd. shinx wanted to play the comp. ((: didn't have ceramah ytd. the uztaz's flight got cancelled.. so it's pushed to today. went out with my fam ytd. went to tampines mall. it was a rush as i only had half an hour to siap. didn't iron my clothes. wore my blue op tee.. again. and my blue jeans. hahas. it wasn't a matching outfit thou. but thanks to the rain, i wore my cute little coat. hahas. went to toysRus. i spotted the badge maker. eh, zaki. who said don't have. it's pink in colour. i took a picture of it. it costs 32.95$. hahas. well, if the entrepruenership thingy. or whatever the spelling. hahas. well, we're making badges. or was it keyrings? nevermind. i'll ask the boss. hahas. irfaan bought new shoes and teteng. and toys. dad bought aufa a rock-and-roll whale. it's so cute. went to courts. bought bread toaster and new house phone. it's so damn riculous. *referring to the phone. it's a phone and it comes with the cordless. wahahahas. and the ringing tone is a chinese song. hahas. ((: chatting with dzul and haikalsunplaza. so bored. ceramah is at 3. hmms. i think i'll stop here. ((: see all you ass damaians tmr. hahahas. BLUWKS.

hello.

((: quite in the mood today. trying to forget about the past incident ytd. it was hard to forget about it. hey mr urrm. Germany. pls forget about it. i don't care if you wanna befriend me. i'll get over it.. someday, eventually. ((: hang around with farah just now. dilla go motek with her arfan. then haikal came. us, trios then go LJS. went to eat. hahas. farah said that haikal was a mat rep. WHORE, why would i want a mat rep for a guy. with all due respect, but i'm not that kinda grrl. then farah go back home. haikal sent me home. then i went up, he went to econ. he bought me coke, then i went down. hahas. then we went up. then i went home, and he went down. haha. it wasn't nessacary to say that arr. i'm just bored. i'm chatting with dahliia, WHORE and ayie. agagagas. haikal got ngaji. hohos. ilyas layan me instead. he's a nice guy. hahas. I'LL BE YOUR VALLEYTINES! kekes. kidding. i'm using my nokia 7250, just for the fun of it. my nokia 6020 just lie beside it. now they're both my loves. ((: 7250 might be budget, but still. more memory then my 6020. hahas. today was superbly kawaii. hahas. home room was great. i had to bayar saman. art was great too. we painted. i learnt somethings about maths. hahas. i became the manager for PW. hahas. i typed fast too. too fast. being the manager was good. i picked who would present. hahas. wells, i stop here. my fingers are tired. muwarrks. hahas.

my mom a bitch for life.

my mom is a bitch for life. the ultimate bitch.

thirteen and much more years is almost like hell. i'm not stupid. not saying anything about shinx, but. eh, don't be a fucker and compare us laa. if can, i classify you as a fucking retard. with the courage, angst and ability. here's my word and here's my say. i don't give a fuck. i won't be like shinx. yeah, people say she's pretty. but heck i care about image. god made me equal and impurfect. what's so bad about shinx too. she did her mistakes, yeah. and i still know she's doing it behind backs, but then. what the fuck. when i do all these stupid things, i remember about you. fuck you. my silent prayers not good enough for you?! fuck you. hate you. WORD, peace.
[ my mom saw the picture of me and my friends at the esplanade rooftop. and fuck her. may death rip her apart laa sial. i got boyfriend, so what? i'm not cheap, i guess you are. and so is your motherfucking *toorts*. ]

okays. today was quite okays.
had fun during english. played a game. yeah. went to econ, bought coke. then go home. and sleep. then go shop, meet haikal. then go home. then got fucked up by this butoh. eesh. i wish i was an adopted child, or a retard. or a deaf. maybe something. at least when i'm adopted, i won't know how the fucking attitude of my mom was. or a retard, because people wouldn't care less about me. or deaf, because i can't hear your mouth-motherfucking bullshit. FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE. i had enough. tush. so mean of me. but my heart has more words, you shouldn't know. so what if i'm being disrespectful. bahs. as if i care. call me what? perempuan murah? tak lawar? big fuck. as long as i know i have myself and my selfrespect and dignity. i don't need clothes if they're not meant for me. as long as i live. ((: haikal saw the whoreTTU. keluar tak ajak ako. seriously, i felt so left out. but what to do. i don't think i'm much needed anymore, not by anyone for sure. except if for haikal. ((: geez. i'm so fucking angry. i wanna bite the life out of my mom. arr. eww. that's digusting. neverminds. okay. i pray to god. pls, tell me what i did to deserve this. (-_-* ) gerentee si sundal tu nak blang bpak ako. if they both cut the internet also i don't care. better if i run away to my grandmother's house right. at least there she'd ask me to solat lima waktu. or go pasar with her. she's much more better. i love her. arr. i'll stop here.

I HAD CUTTED HAIKAL'S HAIR YESTERDAY. MY, MY. HAHAS.