ollaa.

(:
got tired.
faked my dance moves,
half naked.
{ elmer said it helps with confidence. }
lols! damn, thou i felt confident.
danced to long way 2 go/ me& you by cassie,
beyonce's dejavu& nelly furtado's man-eater.
hahs. great workout at 12MN.
ooh i think i'm hot.

anyways, had fun.
had dinner out with mamat.
still now, damn bloated. thank you mamat.
(: then went raya for awhile with darling azali, mamat,
baboon, aron, numan 4T1, alep, karat, fini and fini's friend,
whoo. then after had dinner, sat at pondok with mamat.
missed him. awaiting for fred to call. hehs.
ooh, thank you lovables for the tags.
ween, sarahd, syafiq. mmwacx!

frigging bored.
lol. fred is a nerd.
(:

anyways, this open-house damn tiring.
soo, went down. met the resernorths.
then got aron! hahs. so he went home and
dressed up. then the rest all insisted on going
to my house. before going up, i had a drink!
wahoo. (: baron's balas with red bull.
then went to my house. the first person aron
salam'd was my grandmother. haha.
and then mother was like, matair matair.
as if! (X

then jemput aron makan mee soto.
cutting the cake took some time, so i sent aron off.
then mother told me to buy noodles& ten eggs.
so i did. lucky aron was there. ooh my souperman.
loovely!

so aron sent me back.
taching xia. haha. then i sent him back to the resernorths.
saw alep. cute xia. haha.
okay la. been farting.
lols.

open-house soon.
haha. damn bored.
chatting with e-ly.
argh. have to pick up
irfaan's barney cake.

daaa!

#!FRED<3

UPDATED& UPGRADED.
new skin, new cbox.
:D

well, i didn't think much about this la.
i got bored. so well, i'm utterly satisfied.
mind me for having both mamat&
fred's pic. haha. yes, i know. to all
of you all! the nerd in the striped tee is fred.
he's just a friend la. don't worry.

soo, collected about 150$ ++
well, pushed my mum 100$.
so i'm left with 50$++
oh and ya. the makcik toilet at level three toilet
gave me, sue, ween& dayah 5$ each for lembaran.
how generous. awws.
balas budi dengan sedemikian.
jasa kamu amat diterimakan. LOLs!
don't even know what crap i'm saying.

well so many people have heard.
yes, open-house at my place.
not rumour la. stupid right tampal rumours on
my own blog! gundoo.
hee. 21 days and counting.
yadidoo. class chalet. hope for success.
god i love 2A1. anyways,
awaiting for fred to call. thus,
texting mamat. {this is for a heartbreak, boyfriend.}

I'm sitting here all by myself,
just trying to think of something to do.
Trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you.
BUT YOU KNOW IT'S NOT WORKING OUT!

hate you mamat. {SERIOUSLY!}
blueuuwchhs.

anyways, i think i like fred.
oh my golly golly golly golly golly.
:D and i think his friend likes me.
not speaking world here, but lols.
can he please stop text meseging me!
going out raya after zohor.
this year collection little bit only sial!
but that's okay. as long as dad don't get broke,
i'll be ignorant plus content.

anyways, tmr i'm hosting an openhouse.
haha. tmr i'm having an openhouse,
if you want to come, come ah.
but i'm not certain about the duit raya.
but there is free flowing food. :D
come at ard 3PM- 4PM yea.
well if you're smart, hunt my house down yourself.
:D

frigging bored.
no one fun online.
no irfan, no FREDD. no sufian?
no boo? no shafiq{R}. no syafiq{FK}
hahs. NOOOO FADDLLI!

oh yea.
2A1's having a class chalet.
yays! haha. oh damn,
suddenly having an allergic attack.
haha. and the maid also joined in.
XD yea, i have a maid.
she's okay lah. very initiative and quick.
argggh. stopping here.

> D- You have one of the best personalities ever
> I- You have a fine ass
> Y- one of the best damn bf/gf ne one could ask
> A- You like to curse alot
> N- You are dead sexy.
> A- You like to curse alot
> H- You have a very good personality and looks.

aww. seems true right?
thou i'm exaggerating much about being dead sexy.
lols! well, it's true what.
fuck i have a fine ass. lols!

> F- People adore you.
> I- You have a fine ass
> R- Fcukin Crazy
> D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
> A- You like to curse alot
> U- You really like to chill.
> S- Easy to fall in love with.

nyeaaoow. he's a damn darling.
yeah, on the phone with him right now.
soo, bye. nyeaha.

listening to gone, by nsync.
ooh, reminising about it sial!
this song damn reminds me of haikal.
nyeahas.
soo, went to school.
people kept commenting on my hair.
nice, i know. :D
natural colour lah.
i told that to raj, he liberately ignored me xia.
anyways, since my mum know already,
about the colour, maybe i'm dying again.
:D

then fought with jumilia& pengpeng about the report book.
nyeahas. told you, sugar.
see, now we got them back.
i think i did splendid. *pat on the back, dee*

OH WELL,
this is my average mark/ grade.
EL; 62 {4}
ML;61 {4}
MTH; 42 {U}
SCI; 63 {4}
GEOG; 63 {4}
HIST; 54 {5}
LIT; 70 {2}
D&T; 76 {1}
HOMEC; 65 {3}
ART; 67 {3}
CME; A :D

class position; 13/ 40.
leve position; 19/ 79. :D
well, here's the testimony.
Comment;
Diyanah is a bright student who contributes and shares opinions in class. She has the potential to do well if she puts in more effort for improvement. Diyanah has an enquiring mind and displays much creativity in her work. She is able to convince people and rally support from her peers, and is able to think out of the box.

i'm feeling rather content.
well, i'm actually promoted to sec 3NA.
oh yea, the 2A1 video presentation damn nice.
whoohoo agness. didn't know she did
it in 9 hours, and then i gave her our pictures.
damn xia. my face popped onto the big screen.
oh well, loved it! she used "friends forever" by melc/ or was it vitc.
i'm totally flattered lor! she deserved that big hug from me.
:D

well, i want to stop here.
finally topped-up my ppd myself.
text meseging afad& fred.
mooch love sial!

nyeahas!

:D
so right, went on the phone with fred late morning.
it was fuun. we talked from midnight till mere 3AM.
like, actually. i heard him pee.
&he flushed the toilet right in my ear.
we talked about stories,
about that guy he expect me to kenal-kenal with.
kentots& he ajak'd me out.
watching a movie, his treat. nyeahas.
:D

i'm home alone.
parents are off at work,
and shinx and irfaan left, to tampines.
so now i'm home. waiting until mamat returns
{ from school, how crappy! go school. }
then maybe meeting him.
macam tak layak akuu nih.
malas plargk. ehs?

nyeaha.
okay lah. woke up&
smelling the day's damn mellow.
gaaaarhs!

chucks.
double tongued high top.
:D that's hot right?
thanks shafiq{R} for purchasing double tongued.
now i'm getting one too. :D

on the phone with fred,
not mamat now. hahs!

hahehuhaa.

hahs!
first day was awesome.
i received a total of 78$
:D
thou, i feel guilty.
over the radio i heard,
some whore saying that hari raya
is given as an anugerah for those who've been fasting.
like, wth? an award for fasting?
well, i felt bad lor, because i didn't fast much.
i fasted for nine out of thirty days.

then you know, my mak cik,
she was like, "nana dah lawa eh colour rambut."
then my mum was like, "nih lah, pandai-pandai colour rambut."
nyeahas. it's only violet brown!
it could've been copper red, or copper blonde red!
listening to all american rejects, haha.
not going to school tmr, lazy!
going out with shinx tmr, probably with irfaan too.
she wants to buy her own concealer.
ppfts.

i'm on the phone with mamat.
damn it ler. he said, "i miss your bite"
7.8 seconds ago. :B
been seven days since i've seen him.
that's actually a record. pathetic right?
he just lives behind my block. oh mamat.
fuck you.

chatting with hafiz {cousin},
he's suddenly interested in sugar/quween.
-_-"} stupid cousin.
hahs, stop here lah.
damn exhausted + having blisters.
selamat hari raya. :D

KPD SEMUA KAWAN-KAWAN SAYA DI SINI SANA.
diyana ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya.
moga awak dapat ampunkan dosa-dosa saya.
dan maafkan saya jikalau ada tersilap bahsa.
harap kamu dapat maafkan saya, sekalian,
take care.

hanii invited me out on a raya outing.
yea, i miss her loots. &the bunch of bananas too.
except for dinie. for some reason lah.
{ dinie's a twig-person peahead liar. LOL! }
& the 2A1 malays are also planning to go out together.
hahs. that's what i suggested to "eeyam".

oh yea, &i thank my friends out there,
for those hari raya mesegs,
via text/ instant/ testimonials.
appreciate it. sorry didn't reply to all,
prepaid low. : D

hee. well, i'm stopping here.
well, my finger has this papercut,
from bungkus-ing money just now.
and it damn hurts. andi would like to
appreciate a goodnight's sleep.
: D

Pick this song,

A Lonely September by Plain White Ts.

And I didn't mean to meet you then-
we were just kids.
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss .
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did.
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did.
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did.
No, you didn't mean to love me back-
but you did.

frigging bored,
thou profounded effing fun.
chatting with gabriel loy { the horny one }&
shafiq rojak.

i'm setting up fantasies for this poor guy.
tskks. fuck me lah, better then telling fake stories.
XD
soo, before that, chatted with wendyy& syafiq.
not going to school tmr. don't want, don't want!
even if i have to, cabut. :D
meet mamat/ afad?

soo like, went to youtube,
watched teen titans' movie; trouble in tokyo.
you should watch it, well i recommend you.
if you're lost between love& friendship with a friend.
well, that's like robin& starfire {damn!}
and friendship puts you to the test. and they've taught me,
teamwork is unbreakable. and friends, they've always got your back.

then i watched this mv about teen titans.
it's a song, goodbye by plankeye.
well if you've let that someone you love go,
but you're unwillingly trying to forget him.
this song may actually follow on suit.
(:

ooh. suddenly the urge for the converse double tongued- highcuts.
thanks shafiq, for referring my highcuts to it.
ooh. pending for the that highcuts. ooh shafiq~
and yea, janji'd mamat to dine out western style.
he's dying for lasagna. well, you loove it sangat right,
you pergi belanja i ah.

oiee,
anybody, bring digicam to school on thurday!
stopping here. (:

walk away.

olaa.
(:

just came back from shopping.
weekly weekend shopping with mother.
ahaas. we went tampines lah.
{ wherelse does my mother go?! }

well mother didn't talk much about my hair colour.
nyeahas. well, now my shopping list, it's all crossed out!

i got to dye my hair purple { thou it turned out violet/brown }
bought my lor perfect concealer {thanks mother, loove ya loads! }
got my black heels { thanks father, my pohkay-er }
my khaki overalls { thou i got it for my birthday }
my highcuts { birthday too - LOLs! }

now i want,
that BUM tee,
that black polo t,
cut hair,
drink out with fred.

chatting with this gabriel loy.
on the phone with boyfriend.
nyeahas. ouhkaess lah.
stop here, goodnight my fellow stinky people!

{ oh, send me testimonials lah!
later i reply back. }

like, damn fucking bored lah.

mum's asleep in her bedroom.
&shinx fell asleep watching motogp on the couch.
& no one wants to chat with me? freak laa.

so just now, buka.
ate pizza. cand pizza.
the hawaiian classic& singapore special.
i simply ate one slice of each and felt bloated already.
hahs! i should've eaten my alternative servings.
RICE! i needed rice, but this stomach is so stubborn.
i need more carbohydrates, but i keep gaining fat.
well, well? serves me right for not fasting right? hahs.

i edited 2A1's class photo already.
our fieldtrip to the newater factory.
god, fond moments. we were all really close to mr saiful.
and i remember cikgu nor was there too.
effing fun, &undeniable fond momentums.
esp at that time, when i was bonding with sayyidi.
urrm, hey, my digicam spoilt.
{ merely broken into pieces la },
i hope somebody would bring one to school this thursday.
SOMEBODY MUST BRING! because that's the only day that everyone
will be present. must must! { because agnes& wendyy demands for it! }

well, i'm so mellow in this stupid screw stool.
with my top hair in a messy bun while the bottom half is
neatly tied with a chopstick. &i've not bathed in two days.
oh mamat was confounded as thou i never bathed for many months or so.

(: i'm suddenly falling in and out of love.
with mamat! he's like.. grown up fast.
to imagine him on 7/8/06 { he so maintain gyler babi. }
to the breakup after 29/8/06 { started to get dumbfounded,
thou i was exhausted with tears crying after he kept saying.
"i still love you." & "mamat wants nana back." [fuck i remember every word he spoke }
to the first few fights, 30/9/06 { damn got me crying all over. }
to a few hours back, i fluxed away saying i missed him.
oh i do miss him. i sent him this cute little text.
well, i sacrificed my ppd lah. and he replied,
"Aww.. Same here too. Love you too my Nurul Diyanah binte Zaini..
Diyanah DON'T LEAVE ME!!" got flawed lor.
mamat's an stmf. but he's a jerk because he refuses to topup for me.
well mamat, no more free stuff for you. bluekxx!

oh well, i'll neb here.
damn frigging bored. oh anyone drop me
some rain from the sky.

to my fellow a1s.

To; all of you all.
(x {what fucking english?!}

Especially 2a1s.
{i fucking force you to read this la.}

Friends, thanks for being there for me.
Thou it seems pathetic we've not parted yet.
But i'm already missing you guys.
Well, i'm afraid to lose, but hey.
I've got to move on. Maybe writing this down,
you'll be aware of it too.

This post is really dedicated to Agnes Ong {Bee Onn! LOLs!} & Wendy Yeo.
Well, two years. Long yea?
But we'll still see each other. Don't be so afraid lah.
We'll be next door. And pls ah Wendy.
Don't treat me like a stranger. I'll cry.
You two don't need to care much about what subjects you take,
or classes you go to. We'll be seperating, but don't take this
over-reactingly. Indeed i'm going to miss you both. Esp Agness.
*poke poke* Well, two years.
And there's nothing left to do/ say.

Well, just saying, thank you all fellow 2a1s for making my everyday.
- the immatured pranks we pull on teachers.
- the annoyance between one another {pull table, chair}
- the record for most canings, public/ class.
- the things you say that makes me aware of everything.
- && the teachers that came and go {not that sad lah, just overreacting here.}
MR SAIFUL, MR LIM, MS JUMILIA, and i really love STEPHANIE SEOW PENG2.

God, so sad. I love my 2a1.
I'm being a fucked up drama-mama.
Hees. Well, again.
I love my 2a1. Pls remain with me,
memoirs, i need memoirs, pls?

hey delilah?

i'm so frigging bored.

listening to plain white t songs.
the acoustic ones. passing by
hey there delilah, a lonely september.

text meseg'd mamat.
i said, "call me when i'm
REMEMBERED."
kill me for having a boyfriend like you.
kill me for having a guy who admires hurting me,
like you. oh the time i wasted for just
a phone ring.. i'm fucking hurt.
and when i'm hurt, don't expect me to say sorry
after the things i'll do that'll hurt you even more then this.

well, went out just now.
met dzul. hahs. damn funny lah.
i beat him, he beat me.
(x went home, played the comp.
myspaced, met this new friend.
Irfan, or a.k.a Machy.
cute xia. and we are soo alike, in areas of music interests la.
emo punk, punk rock, esp acoustic.
plain white ts, secondhand serenade {fucking common thou}.
dashboard confessional, and my ooh favourite.
jimmy eat world. he was listening to the middle,
and i listened to sweetness. gagaga.

well, see.
i can enjoy myself better without a boyfriend.
maybe i really should let him go. maybe
because you're pulling me back. and that's
a waste of time. and so when i leave again,
i won't turn back. {trust me, mat.}

got bored right. went deviantart-ing too.
downloaded about ten/ eleven brushes.
did this one, cute image.


well, i think this is one of my really concentrated graphics ever made.
even though all of these applied were brushes,
i took a long time just thinking about the concept. hahs.
well, if you like this, thank you. {first timer xia! appreciate la.}



i used this for my myspace. another example of;
good use and appreciation for brushes done by the
deviantart'ers. simple? i know. beginner?
yes, yes. i also know.

so, let's stop here.
i need to clean up this house.
well, the most futile chore was assigned.
i have to clean up the staircase railings.
put the dirt away. erratically meager like so!

lala lie.

mum is displeased with my hair.

finally today, she caught aware.
wow, she's fulgent. she found out after
24HRS. damn.

anyways, went to johor just now.
thank you, shinx.
for waking me up. ppfts!

went to johor like so.
hee. my car has a remote control for the
mini jukebox thingy. how cute. and dad handed me the remote.
gagaga. went to buy more black bras and household stuff.
i'm so urgh. so sick of black bras. like, all my bras are black.
geez. stop it with the black bras.

anyways, i really want to stop here.
i'm really really pique-d.
oh qube zee.
buy me spray.

violet brown<3

hello hello.
(x

school sucked.
didn't participate in anything.
so hehs, boring lah.
played stress with herda's friend.
i won, in her face. boowekks!
:P
the movie, akeelah and the bee was uhurr.
quite anticipated with the ending, too bad couldn't watch.
wendyy said i should've gone in spelling bees too.
sial lah. with my english like this!

after school,
dyed my hair. garnier's
violet brown. loovely xia.
thanks Sugar! love love it.
love love her! tmr no school,
like, yay. anyways, overall marks.
i failed 1 out of 9 subjects. (sepelended!)
but too bad my position is 17/40.
sue is 33/40. dayah is pathetically 39/40.
dayah could've made it, she could've.
she's changed thou. i'm worried. both about
studies and her personal life. so, she'll come
back to us (qw, sg, fd.) someday. just hope we'll
forgive her. hee. anyways, i'm bummed.

play play lah.

EL; 38/ 60 (P1), 26/ 50 (P2) =FUCKING BAD!
MATH; DON'T KNOW.
MT; DON'T KNOW.
SCI; 64/ 100 =I LOVE MRBENCHEAH!
GEOG; 68/ 100 =I LOVE MS SYAWA.
LIT; 72/ 100=AWW SHUCKS(:
HIST; 54/ 100=GAGAGA. PASSED!
A/D; DON'T KNOW.

I LOVE QUWEEN.
during pe, snapped picx with wendyyeo& nasthasia.
haha. camwhored! then used agness' phone.
took two shots. one with surya& ween.
and that other one is exclusive.

again, thanks agness!
much love!

waiting for afad to call.
stupid mamat want to sleep.
like, what kind of boyfriend.
don't want me to be on the phone with some guy all night,
but he himself would rather sleep until dawn. not to forget,
not calling me anymore. like, change yourself xia boyfriend.
afad would make a better boyfriend. consperm!
too bad lor.
he came a little too short for this.

anyways, i' goddamn bored.
and i got to go.
XD mr friqking is pending for his blogskin.
it's processing, processing.
do wait yea. trying out the css codings.

lovelove,
i hate mamat! maybe afad's better.

The Lamborghini Murchielago L460 Versace.

I got bored. This car is so baah-utiful.
Still, the Lamborghini Murchielago L460 Versace.
It's sooo perfect. Mamat! I want this, i want this.

Didn't go to school today,
i got so bummed that i forgot to wake up.
X) so, after "school" went down. met sue& ween.
gagaga. Ween had a haircut. a bad one!
but it's okayys, she looks cute.
then met Mamat. he puasa today, like sad lah.
Yesterday tak puasa for no reason, today he puasa.
And i ate infront of him. Gahs!
So bored, chatting with Fiyfee.

Hurs. Mat, i'm broke!
I need cash, to dye my hair.
Or atleast makeup? Mat!!
Hees. Stop here lah, stupid lah.
So fucking bored.
-_-"

strap from altitude.

woooaaaah!
kekes.
listening to jimmy eat world sweetness.

so bored.
anyways, this is a new skin.
you know you know, changed my skin four times ytd.
this one hmm. confirm changing again next week.
:D well what to do right?

my adobe provides full 24/7 service and software.
downloaded manymanymany brushes. all from deviantart.

dodo check the website out yea?
the art is frenatical! amazing and beautiful.
well i downladed my brushes from there lah.
and i took certain images, reflected myself.


lookie, Chucks highcuts! & Rafayel as Raphael & Nutty, who is Me.

whee~

happy one month to us.

(:
well, of couse i'm happy!
like, finally sey. if we didn't break up right,
we'd be like.. how many months already anniversary.
and this is soo nice to prove to everybody,
i can actually stick to one boyfriend.

changed my skin, did this horribly.
but it's okay. pending for more of mamat's pics.
gagaga. well, tmr i'm meeting afad.
mamat didn't mind, or so. i don't care.
i want to meet afad, i want to meet afad!
and i'm not going to school, so haha!

yadidida.
so happy. like, one month tau.
no flirts or kissing other guys.
soo happy. be happy for me, pls?
gagaga. it's 2; 26AM.
&i'm chatting with my laling Fred.

so end here,
hate you rafayel.
[ i know i suck at lying. ]

TMR KITA ONE MONTH!
(: I CAN SETIA, SEE?

money's not fun.

buka'd.

ate nasi ayam penyet.
whee~

went out to nuh during mid-day.
abang alif had a motor accident.
poor thing lor. his right arm and leg,
fractured and broken. tsk, tsk.
get well soon! after that,
went to geylang. the bazaar.

like damn pathetic lah.
hot with many people sliding through your skins.
bought my baju kurung. 90$ xia.
this year i'm wearing white, like, fuck the colour lah.
end of the month and confirm already my period coming.
like my sister and mom, they don't quite care lah about me.
it's soo sucky and they're both fucked up big-headed people.
you guys won't look nice in white. i don't care.
i hope irfaan destroys your shitty whiteness colour.
gagaga. what a lame word.

patched with mamat.
whee. but i'm meeting afad tmr.
mamat didn't mind. so, what the heck?
tmr i'm not going school,
meeting afad instead. gagaga.

oh yeah, i finally have adobe cs2.
thanks joey!
haha. he hacked into our laptop and squeezed in a serial number.
to all you pathetic "30-day free trial" friends of mine,
HAHAHA!

but i've got friends.

So this is the first verse,
it's not very long,
but i'm ready to move on.
.. .. .. .. ..
Well, i've got friends who (la la la lie)
should help me pull through. (la la la lie)

Broke up with Mamat.
14/9 - 16/10. 29DAYS.
We could've been a month, i should've waited.
Well, we broke up minutes before buka.

"Take no chances. Break jer lah." said DEE.
"So you've been waiting for this for a long time right?" he replied.
So i said, "Yea. Perhaps it's just it." and then he said,
"Ouhk lor!" So i said, "You don't even want to grow up looking at this.
Maybe it's not you, maybe it's us." sooo Mamat said,
"Yah ouhk lah. Selamat berbuka." how brat-ish.

Oh the hell i went along with him.
But predictions and this heart still calls on to him.
But i got friends who'll help me get over it.
Friends, i need you.
Afad especially.
I feel bad for breaking up.. again.
But what's the use of pulling back,
waiting for a guy to say sorry.
Now i'm chatting with wanbo.
Telling him why i asked for this ohsosucky breakup via sms.
Ppfts.

Guess i'm done..
So here leaves; Diyanah, the biarch.

taggy tag.

The tagged victim has to come up with 9 different points of their perfect lovers. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged.

If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
GENDER: MALE.


1. Be smart with sorrys.
2. Be stubborn at times.
3. Be honest.
4. Be understanding.
5. Great kisser.
6. His love is sincere.
7. His love must be pure.
8. His love brings you places.
9. He gives a sense of security.

I TAG DINIE, WENDYY, AGNESS :D AND SARAH'D.

this rapid hope loss.

like my skin?
yeah, kind of plain.
this is a temporary skin.
waiting for joey to lend his adobe.
image cut off from deviant art.
font is earwig factory.
lyrics of "this is forgery",
replaced the statement, "this is forgery"
with "this is ransom, not a postcard."
LOLs!

ytd buka out, with the family,
for the first time! we ate at captain's food,
beside hotel81 beside masjid kassim.
it was great. six people ate for 42$
after that, went to golden landmark.
there got nothing, then went to city plaza.
went to first lady. saw the fifty cent guy.
spendid improovements on his looks.
dad bought his baju kurung. then i spotted fatin alia wearing tudung.
i saw wanbo too, i think? then went to tanjong katong,
went to first lady, again. bought baju kurung for second day.
mine is same with my mum, but different colour. then shinx
bought her first day baju also. then paid and went out,
mum bought hers, a dress. then she want to complain ahs,
why so cerewet. i was like, eh kalau ada size i amik lah.
stupid xia. went home at 11 plus.

back home, mamat sent me a text.
" Night, night Nana.. Sweet dreams.. If you are still mad with me.. Never mind, it's okay i deserve the fact that i am stupid enough to treat you this way. Okaylah, goodnight."
and i replied,
"Well, i still won't accept your bitter apology."
he said, "Okay".
Then i said, "next time don't bother sweet goodnights.. I'm not sincere in replying still. You're sucha waste of time. Oh bye."
And.. he didn't reply. So i sent more.
"Hey, you know what. If you don't care & so do i, why don't we just go our own ways. I'm getting old of waiting & you suck at saying sorry."
And then, he said. "Ya. I know my sorrys suck so fucking badly."
Then i replied, "And your too dumb to think what i actually meant. Change your ways, and your fucking sorrys. Because soon i'm leaving. And when i leave, i will leave."
Then he has yet NOT replied. So here is what i said.
"See, you don't even want to reply. Fine, be a bitch at your best. &do hope i'll leave you for afad someday."

And then i went ahead to some Baywatch.
felt sad lah. afad never text/ called me.
gahs. so did mamat, but that's ouhkaess.
well, jamilah tagged me. so i'll tag later.

Hot? I know.

Gerard looks damn funny in blonde. But Mikey looks hot in black. WTF? Gerard from black to blonde while Mikey turns it the other way round. Mikey is hotter this way, but wait? I remember him wearing specs. Geez. Spendid xia. Now i guess i love Mikey Way MORE then Frank Iero. Hymppfh. I still hate Afad! &Mamat too!!

gahs!

Just bend the pieces 'till they fit,
Like they were made for it,
But, they weren't meant for this,
No, they weren't meant for this.

Still, hate you afad.
< /3

i can't believe it lor.

like, cfked up lor.

hateyou, afad.

< /3

our first real fight &it's killing me

i am flawed and i am crying.
for the first time since i ever knew him,
he called me babe/ baby.

sial lah. he said, "baby.. can you tell me what's wrong?" and there, he wrote "<3nana."
my heart is breaking, this is the first time he ever wrote my name, with a heart.
and now he's text meseging me. -got his phone back from mama.

i'm really torn xia.
to actually melt because of his words,
that's pathetic but this is seriously the first time.
well, he made me mad.
like, cfked up irritating you know.
then during that one and half hours plus plus,
he barely spoke a word.
he still sent me home, and inside the lift,
like, he never even wanted to talk to me, or hold me.
gees. i'm so frustruated now!

mamat doesn't know how to say sorry!
and that hurts. because this is the first real fight we had.
then he text meseg me, blaming herman.
i was like, he's your little brother xia.
and you stood there laughing. ppfts!

i was like, don't pull it to mchammer lah.
then i said, "ouh goodbye."
he was "wtf bye."
grrs.

lamborghini Murciélago LP640 Versace

hee. nice right? the adorable it gets. this is the lamborghini murc versace.

well, i've gone on with lambocars! from the hamann to the murc to the gallardo. spyders and diablos are too "boxcar"ed for me.
hee.
this car is so damn beautiful. hee. cannot believe mamat made me imagine it without the hardtop.
whoah. setia with mamat if he actually owns a lamboooo.
like come on, i'm one of those thousands to drop by to check a lambo.


malay was ouhkaess.

quite easy, i say. haahs. after school, went home.
sue tagged along. we bau'd each others stokens and kept viewing freddyy's profile.
damn kekek lerr. today is soo dejavu.
everytime i talk about fred, sal (gorgeous guy) will pop inside my head. uuber weird!
sal wanted to meet me today. nyea`ahah.
i caught him giggling, suchha bad prank.
but haha. what the heck right? got tired xia.
walked from 720 to block 99 to block 105. lepak'd there.
creepy xia. people riding bicycles would actually stare at you.
haha. yea, and i altered my skirt again.
as short as ween's! haha.
they call me pornstar. like damn pathetic.

mum knew i didn't puasa.

stupid sue, forgot to wash her mug. haha.
ouhs well! maybe tmr i go sentosa lah,
kalau ada mood. tag along with sal.
which is more of a big nono. or maybe meet fadli.
hahs. if got no options, mamat's always there.



GOD I REALLY HATE MAMAT.

FIVE DAYS AND COUNTING<3.

you're dying to look cute in your blue jeans.

(:

six days and counting!
i hate mamat!

science was quite easy.
did it in fifty minutes. (:
then slept! like pathetic xia.
i was the only sore-eyed infected person left.
and i sat alone alooong the corridor. cfking pathetic lah.

anyways, after school,
helped sue& dayah pierce for ween.
nice lah, sayang it was too rendah.
then went to tamp central with sue& ween.
bought studs, then i pierced for sue.
senget ahs, i think. then we matau buy earsticks.
hurhur. i'm piercing too! just trying to find superpick pointing needle.
whee!

then after that, went back to bedok reservoir.
alep got caught shoplifting (stupid lor), then kampao came to take him away.
then the kampao gave mamat back his mp4, and said to us, "jalan balik jalan".
so we did. we went to bedok north, called ipul, asked about the resernorths.
while walking, spotten kampao talking to boi. was like, fuck then!
kampaos and keretas everywhere. so me and mamat jalan step tak kenal.
got bored of waiting for them, so we proceeded back to bedok reservoir.
we went to our favourite treehouse. i had fun!
geez~ i got to go,

and uhh.
i changed my song.
i know it sounds crappy. but the ending part is just loively.
(:

I HATE MAMAT! SIX DAYS& COUNTING!

Hands down.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

if i leave you -now?

GAHS!

didn't post ytd, did it intentionally.
wanted to actually see if blogging actually makes a difference when
i'm online. turns out- it's nothing!

heesh.
just applied my medication (eyedrops),
like very pain lah! grr.
anyways, mathematics paper one was a score.
i think agness really liked sitting outside laa.
=D tissue: "11a)"

gahs.
today is like, damn sway!
i fell the staircase twice! going up and down.
stupid eyes! then i fell down at the carpark. my ripples' DAMAGED!
like damn laa. then ride mamat's bike, no brakes. ripples' sole fading too.
bahs! i told aron to buy me another ripples. hoho.

fought with mamat.
grr. like, want to go home right.
must wait for him. then go inside the lift, must orang pelawa him.
like, wtf. i just quickly closed the door behind me, he didn't even bother to
catch up. tuh lah. NOW I FORGOT TO TAKE MY NK3120! THAT'S CFKED UP!

if i leave you (again),
do know. my purposes are to make you a better person.
basically a better person/ BOYFRIEND. stupid boyfriend.
like gurrhs. don't even bother to call, or catch up to give me back my celly.

I HATE MAMAT,
SEVEN DAYS AND COUNTING.

anyways, do check out secondhand serenade's new unreleased single,
Stay Close Don't Go on his MYSPACE.

my ohso glossy eye.

fuck lah.

i've gotten a sore eye.
my right eye. my good eye. like,
oh indonesia! what have my eyes done wrong to your country?
and haha. it'll be fucked up if all this haze was caused by indoes making satay.

gahs. applied eyemo drops thirty-five times.
and nas is actually amazed i counted them.
then my eye has like, pus coming out.
not exactly pus lah. just listen to this,
it's yellow. it's squishy, icky, sticky.
when you touch it, it's like mucus or your nose boogey.
but don't ask me about the smell lah, because i don't really care about that.

soso,
i used the computer from morning, ten plus until now.
(: shinx wasn't home so here i am. gagaga.
han actually popped me a meseg. after a mere year of adding him,
he popped me a meseg. how uhuh waas i. and i don't actually remembered him.
then this guy, quite cute lah. fadli, eighteen.
he looks like ciko xia. and that fadli guy is actually ramadhan& hafeez's distant cousin.

i was flawed when wendy& agness popped me a meseg.
agness had the same sore eye infected and symptoms too.
poke, poke. then wendy gave me tips,
such as resting, eyemo is pathetic, drink loads of plain liquid, keep away from the computer. hahs, even thou i did not. she is right thou. eyemo is fucking pathetic. wendy totally broke my heart after saying, "friends suffering is a very sad things."

like gaww.
ouhkaess, i want to stop here.
chatting with jamila is so grreat.
and it gives me intellectual language.

I HATE MAMAT.
NINE DAYS& COUNTING.

lamborghini cars gets as good as it goes.

LAMBORGHINI MURCHIELAGO ROADSTER.

I ' M R U N N I N G A W A Y .

maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe
that everything i said and did, wasn't just deceiving
and the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that i was never brought into this place .

changed song,
since that sibling of mine had this same song.
went myspac-ing. opened secondhand serenade.
there was maybe, and i decided to listen to it.
now i love this song.

i was crying alone tonight.
reflects me, today. &this song really fits in.
chatted with shafiqrojak. he was so mature!
and thank you graciously for your advice.
now i know what to say,
"pls don't try to hurt me again."

making short post.
history was fucking shitty.
5o; 5o chance, also.

anyways,
happy secondth birthday, irfaan ( little brother )

fuck you lah, rafayel.

first of all let me say,
you can't accuse me of all the things,
you know that you are guilty of ,
&i see that it is easy for you to blame
everything on me,
if that's the case i should go have my fun,
and do all the things you say i do
boy i can't continue to take this from you.

had a like, fucking dispute with mamat.
now it's like.. fucking hard to breathe ( yes, loss of breathe )
like fucking pathetic lah. fought via msn.
how immature, unsensitive and lame.
i was kidding around, saying i fucked with aoon.
( I'M STIL VIRGIN ! )
and he was like, yeah. "pustard you."
i was like, kidding. what crazy xia right?
and he was like, how can i know if you do things behind my back.
-_-* like, come on lah. be sensual about it.
think hard. aoon is my friend and mamat should actually know better.
fuck bestfriend and boyfriend. like stupid xia. if it's like,
fucking hard to believe, then what's the fucking point of digging out proof right?


i might as well have cheated on you as much as you accused me of cheating !!

does she love you that's worth knowing

=D

just berbuka.
whee. what a square meal.

listening to the last song ever.
yadadadaa!

ouhkaess, literature was feeties.
shitty questions about chnay, the bully.
and the unseen poetry was fucking shit.
about this old father william& youth. ppfts!
anyways, wish me luck for my art and design.
fuckfuckfuck. did horribly! two hours wasn't enough.
I SWEAR!

so, then.. after school,
slacked with everybody, like-ohsousual.
sutinah joined along, which was alright cause she seemed utterly upset.
arun was like fucking irritating lor. hees. stayed there until 3;3opm.
then chaaows with mamat. gahs!
like, i got so weak just now. and i think mamat actually took off my stud.
like shit lah. my stud was so perrty. damn it.

added people on myspace. hees.
if you have myspace, add me yea.


I don't think that I have the strength to let you go .

andai kau jujur (:

featured car was lamborghini.
got it from lambocars.com, or something like that.

had my el paper 2 and geog.
let's see, el was like..
fucking troublesome. we had summary-writing. PPFTS!
and geog was like..
5o;50 chance of soaring/ flunking.

anyways, hope for the best everybody.
goodluck !!

so, finished at 12;3opm.
went to sit behind. was fun.
then proceeded bedok north, played with kittens.
the kittycats ruined my school u. heesh.
then kampaw datang, semua lari.. went back to bedok reservoir.
lepak pondok. was ouhkaess lah. saw nifael. he was riding piyo.
=X went back at 4;2opm. made a pitstop with mamat. went back at 4;4opm.
went back with beads of perspiration, changed my clothes and immediately went to sleep.
woke up at 6;3opm. addressed the table and everything. chatted with mamat& wanbo.

huahua.
mamat<3 !
having art& design, lit.

the ohsofucking beautiful hamann lamborghini gallardo 2006

i totally love this dub.
i was walking around the lamborghini website.
and of all the ohsobeautiful cars, this hamann lambo gallardo caught my eye. it looks so graphical yet beautiful but it's untouchable. another dub caught my eye. &it was a porche.
=D it's white& i'll show you if i actually have some time.

i remember waiting for you to call.

we stood like statues at the gate.

not that of a good day today.

let's see.
woke up for pre-dawn meal.
waited for mamat to call as usual, but he didn't.
did only ten situps after shower.

at school,
got 19.5/ 25 for my science test. EXCELLENTE!
still fasted. =D
resisted temptation to eat. HURRAHS.
plucked my eyebrows. got fucking itchy.
and now it's done. dittoditto.

then went to 720.
saw two chinese damaians eating mcd.
syaitan mengoda, iman pon ntah apa jadi.
and i ate. puasa setengah hari today. PPFTS!
did math revision paper given by pengpeng.
then did my geog revision. listented to uber loud music on husb's mp3.
turnt around and saw adam& abas fight.
like, duhh i took abas' side. =D
i love abas you know you know !
then went back at 4: 3oPM.
got sad, i was looking at my shoes, and when i looked up..
i saw mamat gone. without a bye-bye, his priceless grin OR
a goodbye kiss. not even a peck. i didn't even see him leave.

so now i'm listening to bruised- jacks mannequin.
reminds me of these blackblues abas gave me.
and this current new one given by mamat.
hesh. chatted with wanbo, exhusb ely, dzul, syukri, thawfiq& ewan.

EVERY INCH OF ME IS BRUISED.
give me back my heart you insolent you.
i love mamat, sometimes.

sounds cute. i like.

i got bored, so i changed my song.
found this song on my playlist.
it's jacks mannequin.
and haha. this song is not ripped.
the singer just repeats himself.
=D hope you like this song.


DARK BLUE LYRIC:

I have
I have you breathing down my neck
Breathing down my neck
I don't, don't know
What you could possibly expect
Under this condition-so
I'll wait, I'll wait
For the ambulance to come
Ambulance to come
Pick us up off the floor
What did you possibly expect
Under this condition, so
Slow down
This night's a perfect shade of

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
When I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning, burning down
Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning
'Til there's nothing but
Dark blue, just dark blue

This flood
This flood is slowly rising up
Swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet
Tell me how anybody thinks
Under this condition
So I'll swim I'll swim
As the water rises up
Sun is sinking down
And now all I can see
Are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I
Slow down
This night's a perfect shade of

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
When I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning, burning down
Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning
Dark blue

We were boxing
We were boxing the stars
We were boxing
You were swinging for Mars
And then the water reached the west coast
And took the power lines, the power lines
And it was me and you
And the whole town under water
There was nothing we could do

It was dark blue

Dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
When I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning, burning down
Dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning
Now there's nothing but
Dark blue

If you've ever been alone
You'll know
Dark blue
If you've ever been alone
You'll know
You'll know

aku tak jiwang. aku tak emo lah.

=D

just buka'd.
like, aahs.
but i'm still not full.
=D just ate fried noodles and mee tomyum.
so proud of myself today.

i accomplished 48 situps in a day.
did ten after shower just now,
did the rest after i got home.
yadadadaa !

listening to all my life, kc and jojo.
well, it came to mind after i went through ipul's mp3.
=D abas was like, fucking friendly just now.
i like him xia. like oh so cute xia. so handsome, perhaps.
gahhs ! heheh. bustard xia.

anyways, told mamat not to fast today.
and he didn't. haha ! bustard xia.
i hugged him throughout everything.
this one moment, i put my arms round his (ohsohot) bod.
and i just pushed my face through it. i said i love you,
and he said he loved me too. like, aww.

=D
geog& el this weds.
like damn confident lah english.
i cannot assure skyhigh marks, but ppfts.
i cannot and never ever will fail my el !
i've been going through revision.
geog notes.
yadupdupdup.

YADADAA !!

double posting.

got bored, actually.
chatting with the nadlookalike; fred.
he's oh so fucking hilarious lah.
funny kinky cute and looks so girlish.
PLUS the transexualites like him.
actually uhummed him before too.
& he got paid for it. what a lucky fella.
goddess goddess.

hehehs. added up couple more of my friends.
&thank you graciously for tagging.
oh my god, am i being so modest?
hurhur.

watched monster house just now.
it was quite scary at first, but it ended up with a dyno down the chimney.
ppfts ! i also watched little man.
fucking hilarious can. marlon wayans is sooo adorable.
he looks so cute walking around with his booties.
gagagagaga. ouhkaess lah.

i don't want to make it an addiction or a priority to my blog.
tmr's schooling& suriati still doesn't believe me. like oh god !

I hate my friends.

HAPPY CHILDREN DAY.
=D

forgot to mandi hadas& i malas.
so today never fast.

been going in and out, telling everybody to relink/ add me.
i am sorry if i lost your link yea? changed my skin again.
this is ripped, not from bits. heroine's skin.
amazingly, it is not exactly hers.
SOMEBODYSOMEBODY helped me build this identical html.
i just floobed around the css. i don't know what happened to the originality here.

hee. thank you shafiq, for always being there for me.
ouh rojak. =D
i appreciate these times. let's embrace it forever.

today, woke up at dawn.
mamat called me. we talked from o5; 35am - o8; 16am.
=D i love mamat.
i simply miss the way he gives off this cheeky smile after everything we do.
after his hug, his ohnicesmelling body. &he hates it whenever i touch his pacs.
like, if you had the buff body, atleast show some skin right? =D