i had a good day, but it turned sour when the moon rose.

• i need good grades and good behaviour, or else no more school. "waste of money".

undeserving me, or them? they expect me to study AND jaga irfaan. when i study, they ask me to jaga irfaan, when i want to play with him, i was forced to study. TORMENTS. i'm here, and my mom is sleeping. fuck her.

• a breakdown of a friendship.

hais. it's broken, but it can be fixed. it's ripped away, but it can be mended. tears and smiles, they don't mean anything to you? tears are pain. joys are illusions? i still won't give up. i care for you.

• depression.

i'm so stressed with studies, and this rascal. & after hearing biscuit's problem, i was cut DEEP. tsk, tsk. the whole world singing into the blues for DEE. -_-* god, cure my pain.

suiciding is a good thought. it was not bad at all. i'll quit my sins, and serve hell first. the more years, the more sins. the more sins, the more pain. hais. thank god my brain still works. i'm not that stupid for DEATH. ilyas crossed me out. he made me laugh. damn him. and haha, alot of people remembered OUR ANNI. touched.