my mom a bitch for life.

my mom is a bitch for life. the ultimate bitch.

thirteen and much more years is almost like hell. i'm not stupid. not saying anything about shinx, but. eh, don't be a fucker and compare us laa. if can, i classify you as a fucking retard. with the courage, angst and ability. here's my word and here's my say. i don't give a fuck. i won't be like shinx. yeah, people say she's pretty. but heck i care about image. god made me equal and impurfect. what's so bad about shinx too. she did her mistakes, yeah. and i still know she's doing it behind backs, but then. what the fuck. when i do all these stupid things, i remember about you. fuck you. my silent prayers not good enough for you?! fuck you. hate you. WORD, peace.
[ my mom saw the picture of me and my friends at the esplanade rooftop. and fuck her. may death rip her apart laa sial. i got boyfriend, so what? i'm not cheap, i guess you are. and so is your motherfucking *toorts*. ]

okays. today was quite okays.
had fun during english. played a game. yeah. went to econ, bought coke. then go home. and sleep. then go shop, meet haikal. then go home. then got fucked up by this butoh. eesh. i wish i was an adopted child, or a retard. or a deaf. maybe something. at least when i'm adopted, i won't know how the fucking attitude of my mom was. or a retard, because people wouldn't care less about me. or deaf, because i can't hear your mouth-motherfucking bullshit. FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE. i had enough. tush. so mean of me. but my heart has more words, you shouldn't know. so what if i'm being disrespectful. bahs. as if i care. call me what? perempuan murah? tak lawar? big fuck. as long as i know i have myself and my selfrespect and dignity. i don't need clothes if they're not meant for me. as long as i live. ((: haikal saw the whoreTTU. keluar tak ajak ako. seriously, i felt so left out. but what to do. i don't think i'm much needed anymore, not by anyone for sure. except if for haikal. ((: geez. i'm so fucking angry. i wanna bite the life out of my mom. arr. eww. that's digusting. neverminds. okay. i pray to god. pls, tell me what i did to deserve this. (-_-* ) gerentee si sundal tu nak blang bpak ako. if they both cut the internet also i don't care. better if i run away to my grandmother's house right. at least there she'd ask me to solat lima waktu. or go pasar with her. she's much more better. i love her. arr. i'll stop here.

I HAD CUTTED HAIKAL'S HAIR YESTERDAY. MY, MY. HAHAS.