HAPPYBIRTHDAYMAMAT(:

yesyes. today is my beau's birthday.
hahs. ytd we turnt fourteen days.
and two weeks to come,
we'll be a month. &it would also be my birthday.
o8/o9. coincidentally min's birthday also falls together with mine. what a smallsmall world. listening to "amillionyrs"- teddy geiger. oh yea, i'm grounded. i'm sorry i went home at 1o;3oPM. ppfts. i am fourteen, i know how to take care of myself. &i ain't stupid to mix around with those "kxia0" people.

anyways, made new friends ytd.
i went out to tamp, bought mamat's present. haha. so, i saw syedahmad. he's not black lah. finally i noticed. hahs. then he gave my number to his friend, wan. then went to tampines, this guy i slacked with, boi, stole my number from halif's celly. then i meseg'd them. now my prepaid is low. haaars. then at night, arun came down. he's cute ah. friendly and gentleman- and fierce looking. he's a doll! dayah gave him a make-over. eyeliner, black lips, sideburns, black lines, and drew his eyebrows. hahahs. halif tried to be hardcore with his lips. i'm sorry, i have mamat. and he cares more about ween. XP stay away from me halif. got comments, he was a good kisser. hahah. to me, soft kisser lah.

hee. i got mamat a bigbig Raphael plush.
get this, mamat's name is;
Muhammad Rafayel bin Abu Bakar.
hahas. get it? rafayel / raphael?
even mamat's brother laughed at it.
it was cute lah. i actually wanted to buy mamat the 43$ blingbling. dayah said it was expensive. hahah. i'm bored. now i'm listening to "runawaytrain" by tompetty fttheheartbreakers. hee.
made like new friends. so fun.
boi is the cutest among the rest. haaars.
long post.. i'm tired.

i feel guilty.
i hear the miscreants& misnomers misstate about me.
to whom i may be biarch. to whom i may be whoever.
whatever, whatever.
your words harm no one.
but yea, i get it.
i am a fucking biarch to you.
but at least i have my limitations.

i know they say i have halif as a backpocket.
i will kill you if you say that behind my back.
mamat is ouhkay with it.
& i've made multiple promises to him.
yes, even my very own beau says i am a biarch.
but hey.. it's not a waste for a face like me.

( this goes out to suriati hidayah azween rafayel )
if you were thinking if i want to lancha0weh, no lah. we never fought. i'm just setting points about myself.

now, i have developed the habit of not posting.
i rarely go online now. i'm so tired and lazy.
i guess i've wasted my time with halif, min and karat.
but it's ouhkay. my downs are drained,
and again, i thank god.

getting news,
lan ( exbeau no14 ) is having a gig.
so excited. i've missed multiple gigs.
so, he's the leadvocals/ guitarist/ drummer of his band.
BAND; *The Smudge*
now i've been waiting for his organizer with the details.
hope for the best..
for you muhammad azzlan!
jiayou. jiayou.

fucking irritating xia.
write things in short paragraphs.
so, now i'm listening to "plane" by jason mraz.
and i'm getting bored of typing.
i've got muhammad azzlan bin zainuddin to stay with me tonight. since mamat is out to victoria hall. grr.

If the plane goes down, damn. I'll remember where the love was found.

PLEASEDUNTTELLHIM.

today,

i just felt that i haad to post.
boredom and just, something suhway happened.

school was alright. we had double recess. mrcheah released us at 12AM+ to eat. and had practical test. damn hard. for the first time, i actually think i can fail my science practical. after school, sat in class. helped surya with her revision. then did my paper. quite easy ah. the mcq and passage. the saq was quite easy, the sbq sucked. about colonialism. fuckfuck.

after school, lepak'd with daiya and ween. went to sevenoneeight. there was halifmy baybeh, damkecikmin. then i told mamat to come along. huahua. then we moved to seventwoO. then mohsein perogol tagged along. then mamat's friends ( bikers and quite cute ) came. they had an unresolved issue with dam. scareyy xia. after that everything ended. or so it seemed. i saw deen boyshome, and boi efaroji. talktalk then mamat's babah came. lecture half an hour xia. then sat with halif. we continued our subject after a week for not seeing him. i so miss my baybeh. haha. mamat was jealous. he was also jealous that i talked about ahmad danial. ouhkay ah. then, mohsein and min, said i was suhway. because it's always because of me two guys fight. i wasn't sorry for dam killing on halif. so was i sorry for mamatandCO vs dam. ppft. i went home at 7PM. no one meleteh. best. i'm gonna miss my mamathalifhamzah. hais. i want to stop. my stomach hurts. i think it's because of the coke float. it hurtts so much. and i love faizalmok. he gave me rokoki. huahua. ouhkay lah. pootpooott..

hello.

long time since i've blogged.
quite long ah. long time never went online too. i've lost interest in blogging and friendstering. hurhur. because right now, there's a kaboom in my life. and it seems to be taking me away from myself. i don't know why, but i think i'm sick. i'm mamatsick. huahua. mamat ninja turtle. and this time, huahua. he's fun.

he's perfect. sigteen, with the six pacs the biceps the muscles here and there. I AM NOT EXAGGERATING. and whoa. i'm in love with his bottom half. he's suchha indecisive kisser ( like lan ) but he's richer. and he's into downtown stuff. hip- hop, rock. he's not too tall, nor too short. his smile kills my insides, and i can't believe we listen to the same kinda songs. hope for the best. kisses.

and, i've lost patience with halif and dayah.
goodluck halif. i doo miss you, but i hate you. you suck the patience out of life. i'll look for you when you get out. kiss me, mummy loves you. and i hope you remember me.. mummy here loves you. get out of there quick yea? no matter else fails, i will still find

oh oh. saddest part.
me and abang adi berpisah. after i told him that i was seeing ninja turtle, he just went up the walls. i thought talking to ninja turtle about this would make things lesser worse ya. but it's abang adi who lanchaowei'd us. i'm gonna miss you abang adi. remember me iwan. i'd be running back to you, and someday, you'd love that somebody you knew. i'd remember you.. i am goldfish.

i don't know why i'm blogging paragraph-ly but it seems fun. (:
so, i have fifteen exboyfriends. i'm not bragging about it lah, just trying to change myself. and i hope ninja turtle could change me. and to all those misbegottens ( bastards ) and misdeem ( judge people wrongly ) people, i am not in a fucking rebound. and i don't take love for lust. anyways, my common tests are coming. and i aced with my whole group ( yanti, zah, nat, ween, sue, dayah and i ) a second in class for our history presentation. thanks people.

so i want to stop here.
i want to clear my mind off things. somehow i felt bad for dissing halif. today was the last chance i could go see him. behave in that home yah. always remember me and dam. and how you both fought about me.

" Nobody knows me.
Even i can't reach myself. "

hello.
(:

today is natday eve.
the lower sec had to pick-up litter at east coast. embarrasing, but not many people were there lah. hurhur. i picked up ciggbutts. lame right? the teachers told us to.
ahaa. then balik, lepak'd jap. ate nasi sambal goreng. best. then ate epuk- puk. pagi- pagi fifi already downstairs. i hate him xia. hymmpf. stupid lah you firdaus. then went to pondok, went toilet and wee. then i said i want to go home, go barry. then i went home first. ween went to meet motor. then after barry, sue and dayah came to my house. and dad was fine with it. he said as long as they didn't make noise, it's fine. so they slacked here. for an hour, laugh at my baby picx.. pustard right? then at ard midday plus, sue went home. and i ganti baju. so sue went home, and i went down with my flappy straight cut baleno jeans and super crimpled polo tee. i looked so selekeh. then ween went home. then i told dayah to come up. i changed into my super favourite jeans. gahaa. no diff lah. padahal slack my area. then went to econ lah, to 716 lah. then ween turun'd area balik. best. so we sit there and crap. then until 6.. rafayel came. best xia. i was just thinking about him. ( weird lah, i know. i only know half of him ) then ween and dayah went to pondok. went to wee. then i played with rafayel's bicycle. weird xia the bicycle. so panjang and short. first time ah naik basikal biker. agagaga. then sent rafayel back home. yes, i did.. instead of him sending me, i sent him. agagaga. setakat mau naik basikal pyar pasal. (: then i told them i want to go home, because mummae didn't know i was out. so baby here i am.

(:

today was absolute freaky.
ouhkay. the ne garden thingy, was sort of a success ah. my group finished most of it's stock within the first period. whohoo. cheers aki, eeyam. gahaa. got bored, so i dipped marshmellows in nutella ( damn nice ) and drank hershey choc syrup. people were like eew. haha. it's nice lah. who wouldn't want free choc syrup. esp hershey's choc syrup. agagaga. i helped pretty alot at the mindfreak's and darkshadow's stall. i coaxed people such as sri and her friends into buying faliq's hotdaawgs and helped in assisting yanti and ween at darkshadows. you know "three for one dollar, one for fourty cents". yeah. i was there telling people to support us. and they did. except for syazwanacad and faizal. they stole timeouts from us. and hussein. but he payed us abit ah. hehe. i got hit in the head with ice by faizal keshieq and faizal mok. and and. i pinched hazim's cheeks. many many many many times. agagaga. he so nice to jump over. i lupp you ajim. (X
so took my maths test. hard like what xia. then english, watched finding nemo. then music, watched video about percussion. after school, duduk'd belakang. then the econ uncle told me to walk away. because cids were coming. i wasn't scared lah. i was worried, who got tarik'd by the kampao. then meweendayah went to tamp for a while. ween bought a collopin. i bought a double choc frappe. look out for this guy named Safri. he's cute. with angel eyes. haaaa. (: then went back to econ, because we were worried lah who got caught. siyarrlah. my friends kena xia. heard they robbed somebody. then felt so worried, sat at 716. and cried.. my anak and mister got tarik'd by the kampaos. then while feeling sad, ate bowl noodles. belanja'd dayah. i bought lormee and she bought tomyum. after eating, suddenly keshieq appeared. i was like damn happy lor. i was like, eh? kau? then we talked to keshieq ar. wah. selamat sey keshieq. i miss my anak xia. grr. then ween balik'd dulu. me keshieqdayah talk talk ah. then at ard 6;30PM.. told dayah to go econ with me buy topup card. then otw back, dayah said keshieq and his other friends kena screen by cid xia. lucky me and dayah nothing xia. hurhur. anyways, i passed my number to this guy named Rafayel. hehe. ouhkay lah. fartfartfart. i want to barry. (:

(:

posting today.
agagagaga. ouhkay.
so, ytd was saturday. was fun fun fun.
slacked with dayah and ween. &dam and friends.
i cabut'd from home at 4PM. there was din, dam, min and halif. then went back home at 5;30PM. so called "outing" with shinx. in the end we went our separate ways. at 6PM, i was already back with dayah ween dam and friends. hoho. at ard seven, keshieq came along. then i had a sip of carlsberg. soooouper pahit. tasted like rubber and bad medicine. but i'm still trying it out this 9TH! slacked and played bicycle. 720 had this chinese auctioning thingy, very annoying. slacked and smoked. best xia. their ciggs all like free flow like that. winners green and red. best xia. too bad i never tarik alot, my sore throar and cough still here. heeee. my friend right, halif. baru secondary one.. he's only one cm taller than me ah. but he drinks carls &smokes alot. wawaweewah. he's my baby xia! so cute. ween rasa pening sikit. poor thing. (: then i had a cycle with dam. gahaa. at ard 11;30+.. halif rebut. said the kampaos were here. then we all went foot loose. agagagaga. dayah went back with ween, i went home alone ah. then watched anger management and went up to wash-up. confessed to ijal about somethaiing. and he seemed to understand and was very mature about it. best xia. then now i have news. sue can't make it to 9THAUGUST. and ijal not confirming about it either. so it's me and dayah. maybe we asking out din and friends. but if din and friends, got dam. later lecei xia layan him when he's high. i miss ijal soo much. grr. anyways, annoucent making.

THE 2A1S HAVE SET UP A STALL.
HYBRID'S CONTRIBUTING TOO!
THE NE GARDEN THIS 7TH.
FROM 9;15- 10 SOMETHING.

do visit us. and did you look out for the poster at the atrium saying "cookies and jellies" with this cookie monster on it. haha. i designed it.
so, the cup is overflowing.
we have choc-coated marshmellows, freshly baked home made cookies, chocolates, sweets, jellies, hotdogs and many more. so, do come down and support 2A1's entrepenuership in-the-making!

HELLOTHERE(:

today is friday.
something is sooo wrong with me.
i've been sleeping from 7PM and wake up at 9PM, eat, then go back to sleep. and i get tired even when i wake up at 6;15AM everyday. weird hahs. i guess i was so used to sleeping at 3AM. i miss ijal xia. three days pass. two days ago, he finished school at 4PM, then today, he working. oh ijall! dam reminds me of ijal xia. fuckfuck. my bras stinks. i admit! i've been throwing them everywhere in my bedroom. i never reuse them lah, only lazy to wash it, so i guess that fumes up the room.
didn't do our presentation for history, agagaga. then just now, i saw ihsan. gheez. i felt like, bersimpati like that. after school, sugar went back home asap as usual.. hais. so me ween and dayah lepak'd behind econ. then nadzmiy was there. and then dam's friends came! agagaga. i only remembered dam, keshieq, gold and my ultimate favourite, halif. i just met halif lah just now. he's secondary one, telok kurau sec. super cute, baby face. he wore a cap, with knee-length jeans and baju belangs. then slack until 6PM. ween wanted to go back, so we went back ah. then dayah and ween and nadzmiy walk ahead, halif called me. then we talked ah. then keshieq talked, i was like. uh. pergi kejar dia ah. then i walked away, dam kejar'd me with his bicycle. agagaga. he was asking if i was attached or single, aberr said halif liked me. the halif kejar'd me until the lift xia. poor thing i closed the lift door in his face. agagaga. aiyah. monday i'll be there. hopefully you would, and maybe we could talk over things. (: anyways, i'm hungry. i know i'm fat, but hais. eat sleep eat sleep, in the toilet can also sleep. oh god, give me strength or let me breathe properly. ( currently sick with sore throat with pathetic coarse voice and having a clogged nose in my left nostril. ) TOODLES(:

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today was ouhkay. dayah puked. and i saw her puked in action, again. nasty, it was brown with icky maggi mee smell. it pulled my tongue xia. this one smelt worser than her other one during her midyear english exam. she puked and it clogged the sink! tingkat tiga girl's loo.. so we sent her to sickbay. assembly was ouhkay ah. poor ali, three times kept running to the stage. ali cute xiia. grr. then had malay oral. i went to the wrong teacher to take the oral again. hurhur. i got cikgu sahira instead of netty. agagagaga. then the chopstick sisters and ween and i lepak'd. fifi was there, again. and again, he hurt my hart. he was with khalil. like, whoever it was. saw dum again, he was wearing the same tee shorts slippers cap and bag. then saw this cute guy, rafael. or refaee. hurhur. he's abang adi's friend. cute cute. i was like, "kau kawan dan kan. ingat aku tak?" then i was like, "tadi kau tengok aku, pastuh aku tengok kau balik, pastuh kita tengok each other. taching lah." (= slacked until six. buffed nails, recorded songs. hurhur. i buffed imran's thumb. went home at six right, then gave my brother rice. he puked it out. sway xia, always see people vommit. oh god, apa daya ku? ouhkay lah. i think i'm having an allergy attack. i've been sneezing for more than eight times in a row + my eyes are watery. gooodbye.
IJAL MUDDAFUCKKA.
MISS YOU XIA, BINAWEI!
WORK WORK WORK.
GAJI SHARE GO BUY DRINKS AR.
9AUGUST, KITA GET DRUNK?
AMARRCHIAMX?
lan is not ijal. ijal is not lan. and i keep saying ihsan instead of lan, and lan instead of ijal. and ijal as ihsan. gedekgedek?

(:

listening to "and i" by ciara.
hurhur. first, congrats to haikal on getting his wani. agagagaga. ouhkay, skip it with him.. so, school was ouhkay. didn't study much xia. lazy xia.
rabbit and wei sheng got caned twice.
and mr yu used my table and shoo'd me to sit somewhere far- far away. homec sucked, as always! after school, slacked. behind econ's 718. the same ween and dayah again. sue went to meet her boy.. like, faizalmok janji'd us rokok. and we each got sebatang AND fifipunk also gave us each sebatang AND my madrasah friend, kamarul too. mok gave marl green, fifipunk gave viceroy red, kamarul gave green also. best xia. (: oh yea, then we went to econ, asked mok for more rokok, he gave. and rahmanmok also gave us marl red. rokoks free. all the way, there were fifi's friend and fifi's friend's friends. fifi's friend's name was dum. hurhur. slacked until six. when mok came with his bicycle, ihsan was behind. hee. i was like, "ihsan, kau sayang aku kan!" from the side, i saw him smile. hurhur. taching xia. two nights, never call me xia! haha. well, well. i had fun pestering syafiq. i threw his anti-drug badge from the third floor to the ground just because he never told me anything. i'm disappointed as i couldn't catch up with him running up the stairs. agagagaga. my throat pain, i think it came from the air orang cina or the cake. goddess, it's sore.
TOO LONG WITHOUT YOUR 'ILU'S.
I MISS YOU. I MISS YOU, IJAL.

i don't feel like myself these days.
but yes, thank god. me and ijal are ooouhkay. i thank wanblack and khairul for the awesome advice. i talked to ijal, and we're ooouhkay.

today was full of bullshit.
school was alright. ben cheah pulled me by my chair, damn hilarious. and i played with plasticine. made slippers, terompahs, pizzas and epuk- puk. maths was confusing and corky, but i pulled it off. whohoo. english, had a "job hunt". i'm applying for a job as an assistant manager at kenny rogers rooster. hurhur. slacked until 5PM with ween and dayah. was okay lah, a little dry. we were missing out on sue's crap just now. i was freakingly pissed xia just now. fifipunk came and deesturt me, now i don't wish to look at his face anymore. and wan too. wan break heart ! and danial too. i got scolded by danny. hymmpfh. but i had the good part that made me super happy and less paranoid. i had syafiq + fred. i miss you syafiq ! gee. talk mandarin with me jerr. wo tuh ni dek piku ! can ? hee. then meseg'd fred. hurhur. someday i'll go town with him. love love love love freddy flinstone. but d'oh i love ijal more lah. (: had fun xia. got to drink this green apple drink from this unknown sec1 chinese girl and rokok from faizal fat + shikin. hee. AND got free birthday cake ! from this maid ah, i was like. wakduh. sedap banget gei ? gw mau gwe mau ? then she gave me and dayah a slice each. then dayah got an extra slice. agagagaga. hate you fifiiii ! hee. syafiq replied.. BYES !