this rapid hope loss.

like my skin?
yeah, kind of plain.
this is a temporary skin.
waiting for joey to lend his adobe.
image cut off from deviant art.
font is earwig factory.
lyrics of "this is forgery",
replaced the statement, "this is forgery"
with "this is ransom, not a postcard."
LOLs!

ytd buka out, with the family,
for the first time! we ate at captain's food,
beside hotel81 beside masjid kassim.
it was great. six people ate for 42$
after that, went to golden landmark.
there got nothing, then went to city plaza.
went to first lady. saw the fifty cent guy.
spendid improovements on his looks.
dad bought his baju kurung. then i spotted fatin alia wearing tudung.
i saw wanbo too, i think? then went to tanjong katong,
went to first lady, again. bought baju kurung for second day.
mine is same with my mum, but different colour. then shinx
bought her first day baju also. then paid and went out,
mum bought hers, a dress. then she want to complain ahs,
why so cerewet. i was like, eh kalau ada size i amik lah.
stupid xia. went home at 11 plus.

back home, mamat sent me a text.
" Night, night Nana.. Sweet dreams.. If you are still mad with me.. Never mind, it's okay i deserve the fact that i am stupid enough to treat you this way. Okaylah, goodnight."
and i replied,
"Well, i still won't accept your bitter apology."
he said, "Okay".
Then i said, "next time don't bother sweet goodnights.. I'm not sincere in replying still. You're sucha waste of time. Oh bye."
And.. he didn't reply. So i sent more.
"Hey, you know what. If you don't care & so do i, why don't we just go our own ways. I'm getting old of waiting & you suck at saying sorry."
And then, he said. "Ya. I know my sorrys suck so fucking badly."
Then i replied, "And your too dumb to think what i actually meant. Change your ways, and your fucking sorrys. Because soon i'm leaving. And when i leave, i will leave."
Then he has yet NOT replied. So here is what i said.
"See, you don't even want to reply. Fine, be a bitch at your best. &do hope i'll leave you for afad someday."

And then i went ahead to some Baywatch.
felt sad lah. afad never text/ called me.
gahs. so did mamat, but that's ouhkaess.
well, jamilah tagged me. so i'll tag later.