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school was absolut fun.

i get to pair with surya. like yeaaaaaaaaaaaah. and syafiq's sitting behind her. so during class, we kindof talked. i didn't know razif talks alot. we had this math worksheet, and it was so hard to revise through last year's work. i felt pissed because mr poon won't be teaching me! like rawr. and i so-cannot-believe-it, razif sits beside me during malay class. like eurgh, i want fansyuri baaaack! listening to apology. and ohmygaaaawd. chad gave my number to haikal, my so called "exboyfriend". like Jeepus! and will be dying hair black tonight, or tomorrow. AAAAND mum's getting paid tomorrow, so will be begging her for money, for my baaag!

so right, Sechariah approached me again. and used my phone to miss call him. hahaha. he really wanted me to text him. i'm scared! how?!

PICS AT RANDOM.

haha. okay, the eddy picture, i took during class. syafiq already had a caption for it. "nak apa?" hahahaha. kekek siah sit beside him. i like the picture i took with aron. wheehe and the ahpek. dia tau jekk aku tengah sengaja amik gambar dia pat background. cute kaan. muka dia actually macam tengah steam gituu. ps. i love my shoes. and ahaa mind the "grover" face i made. hahaha.

AND OMG. THE NEOPRINT I TOOK WITH HAIKAL. TIME AKU TENGAH SEC2 DURING JANUARY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. MUKA KANAK2 STRAWBERR.

SARAH, I WANT THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
I WANT THIS I WANT THIS. I KNOW YOU KNOW
THAT I WANT THIS. LMAO.



DON'T SPEAKKKKK I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. SO PLEASE STOP EXPLAINING. DON'T TELL ME 'COS IT HURTS.

(ps: bila nak message/call me?)

aku mahu chad.
aku mahu chad.
aku mahu chad.
( multiply times 1000000000000000000000.9309250087 )

aku mahu the killers tee dia punyai.
aku mahu the killers tee dia punyai.
aku mahu the killers tee dia punyai.
( again times ^^^^ )

so just now. ween couldn't make it, so i went to 709 and met dayah, eboi, alep, aron and katek. we sat around, then kampao came, chase this drug addict. and while we were sitting down, there was this crazy woman. she open her shoes and socks, and then she mumbled to herself. aron told the police she was drunk. haha i think she terencak otak. so i bought my hair dye. two packets aah, not taking chances. at bedok central, i saw aunty sue, shinx's boyfriend, herself, hisham and then at mikel, shinx's friend tegur'd me like wtf. you know, aku perasan sia. tadi gala said, "wah dektu dah lawa sey. nak gi mana tuu. eh dah sombong ey" haha. then right, go saint hildas, saw this guy named nalo or somesort. anyhow shouted my name. kawan hanii, one i seriously don't know who. ahahaha. then i saw sal! like heeee. friggin' blondie sia. cute, cute. wanted to meet hilmi, but he wasn't free. like shitfucks.

so got home, ate the most smallest piece of kfc chicken i've ever seen. and now i'm still hungry. (((((((((: btw, i hate asrul. not really la. i mean, i don't like him anymore. but he's taking it like we cannot be friends anymore. maaaan i miss his "yoooooooooooou... . takmo diam laa" ahahahaha. cam pondan yay i cannot forget.

back from school.

first day stepping into class. and my hair wasn't black, alright. so i thank nana so much i love you for the hairspray. like i love you like shitfucks. going out meeting ween again, to buy another packet of henna. i think i dyed wrongly. because right, the colour fainted and washed away alot when i bathed again just now. and also onto my pjays.

ohoho. no, i'm not attached, and will not be for quite some time. yes, i love chad. but naa, i'm not ready to get back in sucky relationships. like, i don't want a boyfriend, and he's trying to move on and forget about his exgirlfriend. so hooooo.

anyways, school. class was okay. surya was like, eh dalam class nihh kau ada dua exboyfriend kau. i was like, oh shut up. and then eddy sat beside syafiq. hoho. tskk! so, there was this chinese guy. his name is sachariah i think. he was suspended yesterday also, because of the hair. and today, he shaved off. now he's botak. ahaaa. he approached me, then he said, ey you want my number, then i can give you my name. hahahaha. and then i took down his number aah (((((: anyways, mertuah dapat class sama dengan liang yu. aaar. he's cute siahh. haha. okay, should be calling mom about going out. posting later?

CONGRATS TO SHINX FOR FINALLY GETTING A JOB. LIKE FINALLY!
aha dapat gaji promise to buy me bag yaaaaaaaaw. haha.

whats the good in goodbye? says:
thats why i said sorry
whats the good in goodbye? says:
i care for you
whats the good in goodbye? says:
thats why i freaking call u every 5mins
whats the good in goodbye? says:
cause i freaking miss you
whats the good in goodbye? says:
and that i freaking need you badly
whats the good in goodbye? says:
and that im freaking sorry now.

what can i say. you're in perfect denial.
oh i can say that i love you so much.
but it's hard. tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
hmmmmmmm still wonder if chad knows how to kiss.
hoho. good/ bad kisser? chad, tell me.

zomg. wi called me.
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

henna'd my hair, black.
shitfucks! (like really)

it's like, really, really black. the packet i bought, was kindof expensive seyy. 1.50$ when you can get it for afew cents cheaper. i left it on for 15 minutes. ahaa, i texted syafiq(classmate), surya, ween and haikal about when to remove it. aha. well, i played cheat laa. i only dyed the top layer, and i didn't dye my fringe. but it's still black.
:/

REASON: i was suspended from class. due to hair colour, like fuck. though, i had fun. sitting, pissing ween, getting pissed, and finally. i got to sit down and had a nice conversation with hani(faisal's exgirlfriend). zomg, i miss you. hahaha, hani i hope you read this. &okay, about the twosome freshsomes damaians. sufrina and nadhirah. they looked so friggin' cute. with their cullottes, and their enthusiasm for school. and their matching shoes. hahaha. C U T E!

so went to buy henna. after school, my hunns came to my house. ween was busy bluetooth-ing, dayah was busy on the phone, and sue, was busy getting interested watching me iron my shirt. haha. and i changed my clothes infront of her. like, happy birthday sue. oh and to jannah too! and then, went out. met haikal, then went to pondok. sit around with dayah and damaians. hoho. and boi and aron, alep. then at 4, choyy and took bus. before that, saw mamat. he looked completely different siaa. missed him! and soooo, went to bedok. met all three without none being late, then got janji with shafiq(ojak) also. hehe. then walked around, rested at cafe galilee and shared a cup of caramel vanilla frappe. then lost the dua ekor, and then syafiq chad called me. he did, like every 5 minutes. *SHUCKS* so went to buy henna, and we took 17A to sue's place. she bought herself a pair of cullottes. and she altered it, just now. haha, she's wearing it tomorrow. my head's itching sia! and it's irritating. woooo. i love chad(pantat).
((((((((((((((((((((:

and so it is, just like you said it would be. says:
i promise to make you happy always. i promise to be there for you no matter what

and so it is, just like you said it would be. says:
=)

OHMYFRIGGIN'GAAAAAAAAWDESSSSSSSS.
(((((((:

making a new blog. love isn't raison de'tre.
(((((((: will be launched soon.

went out with mom, aunt, and haziqah. we lunched at bedok central, feasting on mee soto and banana fritters. then, took bus to nani's (my grandmother/ mom's stepmother) kedai. i helped in with cashing, and the bakar-ing of the otak-otak. nani said i can work for her, if i'm willing anyday from 3 - 11pm. mom said i could, part-time on holidays. i mean, good la. make putu piring, and bakar otak-otak. and you get paid on the dot, after a whole day's work. any friends whose willing for work. no contracts, and you won't possibly get fired. all you do is stand behind a counter, serving hot food. hahahaha. i would. for money. cha-chinggggs! (saving up for 1.5M to buy lamborghini. hahahahahaha) i hope syafiq chad, the pantat reads this part. hahahahaha.

so i've packed my bag. aha. using last year's bag -.-
inside's filling of my report book and stationary. hohoho. altering skirt again, tonight. and i thank my legong maid for washing my tie. i've gotten my socks, my shoes and haha. mom bought me a pair of bling-bling earstuds. which is so totally cute! hahaha. farhie's quitting being gay, like confuckgratulations. ((((: and alfa's finally removed that bush-hair. i've been chewing gum for four hours already, like yay. no craving for ciggarretes. oh, i thank syafiq chad very much. like omgaaawd, i love you. ((((:

meeting exboyfriend, haikal tommorrow. i forced him to come reservoir. and it'll be suriati's birthday tommorrow, not forgetting the hotstuffcutestuff jannah chipmunk's too. so be nice to them, alright? (PS: sabo su)

shitfuck. i'm being ridiculous.
look at myself. waiting for his call.
when i know i shouldn't wait for.
maybe what's best is if i just leave.
there's nothing that i am, to be waiting.

like second time, wishing this would be the last. i'd say. it hurts to love asrul. and i'm not going to hurt myself evenmore. that's simply stupid. look i have haikal. he cared enough to be there. and that's one statement, because he's my ex. and the list goes on, with friends by my side. i don't need a boyfriend. nor somebody to love. i'm petite though gorgeous. i am who i am. i love myself, for myself. no guy who want this, then fuck it. i ain't interested, but look out. there'll be a new guy from uptown. fuckingdown. wooots.

It's not like I haven't tried.
Over and over again.
Stupid fights, wrong or right.
Goodbye...

i went to the orchid country club just now.
i did- trust me.

i didn't thought it would be occ, since like.. which of my relatives would want to spend time at a prestige area. turns out it was my aunt's bestfriend's membership! so called, "family friend" laa. so, i sat there, with people i barely even know. had fun laaa. so no talking, but just view pictures alright. upset that my phone dipped inside the wading pool.




walk 17 steps out the back door, and you see a pond. (:



swimming. in his overalls.



50 cents per card! haha. i never struck luck, not even once. but lucky it wasn't my money.



ANIQ! boy ah. not girl. cute rights. (not my relative)

woooooooo.

i countdown(ed) at home. alone.

well, surprisingly, i didn't know it was already 12MN! i was camwhoring when i heard my neighbours shouting from five to one. i was seriously gaped, because haikal promised to call, which he did not. but i was fine with it, hahaha. i wished everybody online, who didn't make it to the countdown also.

i wished lan (drats he still wants to consider about patching-up (which was supposed to be MY joke) and everybody else. i really need to stray from nurulfatin. her resolution was to pinch tetek, and not pantat. god, that's really scary. (((((((X chatting with lan, izzat and my classmate tersayang(LMAO), syafiq sunny. drats, i'm having an allergy attack. shitfucks.

lan said i look MINAH ABITTTTTTTT ONLY. =P

wishing all a happy new year. (: may each passing year be a new discovery and something new written in memory.




a proper resolution. read if you insist.
(((((((:

mom cooked! zomg.

FEAST, MOTHERFUCKERS!

will be to east coast park tomorrow, with my aunts and adik sedara(s) from morning to i don't know when. i'm looking forward to the new year, since i've already gotten my proper resolution and i'm ready to be up for new obstacles in my life. yippedee. but sadly, i'll be countdown-ing at home, and i think i'll be calling haikal tonight. to countdown with. that's hot, since we've countdown-ed together last year. wow! alright, i'm friggin' bored. and shinx wants to use the pc. happy new year, naaaaa.

i look like one drunken bitch. with ugly eyebags. omg.

this is me, uneditted. (:

Am I wasting all my time
Fighting through this so-called life
Can you tell me now
How do we know just when the fight should end
When I can take the broken, bent,
And shattered hopes and walk away
From this place...

Do you miss me since I stood and walked away
To find the reasons why I'm living every day
For that something that I can't seem to find this time
But I will be all that I set myself up here to be
And I will try to see the future through your eyes and keep
Myself fine away from all the ones who punish me for
All the little reasons every vision I will keep, but...

BANNER YEARS - GAVIN MIKHAIL.
if you love jack's mannequin, this guy's not that bad too.

different people and different perspectives.
woooo. i was visiting blogs, and i think jamilah's post really speaks out.

"so, i was reading some articles about saddam hussein.
i mean, i fully respect him.
he takes his sentence to death calm and strong.
though he may be cruel towards his country, but as a muslim, i feel that at a certain point, its not fair. its not fair for saddam hussein to be treated like this. but oh well, its already done and saddam hussein will be a legend and history."

before that, i had a short debate with een about the same topic.
he was setting his points about w. bush. i wasn't taking any sides, but he seemed to think otherwise. he said that bush should be hung instead. in ways, bush is right. he does have harsh decisions but when i heard over the radio, about the country going on democracy, that just got me thinking. saddam wasn't much of a good leader for his own country, since his actions were against his own men and caused international unfortunate events. tsk. and and, een. if there was no w.bush, no one as smart as him would lead the america. remember, global warming, and his country's industry. that's all i think about. polar bears and melting icecaps (: honestly, een, you're not smart enough to lead a country. haha. well, saddam is saddam. and i respect his death. he was trying his best for his country, unfortunately other people thought otherwise. maybe his death will bring his country a better presidency, and a more democratic and more civilised country. hope for the best. especially for his people. (:

like, excuse me for trying to act political.

pathetic right? it's like, really, really, really oh my gawd.

i miss the guy who bought me roses. where are you wi.
you promised me to be reached. you did!

alright, the "don't call me baby" song keeps ringing in my head. no matter how irritating it is, i just cannot shut it off. don't call me baby.. you know i'll never belong to you.. ahaaaaaaaaaa. ey, asrul nak jadi uztaz emo. how superficial. haha. then he, assalamualaikum me. that's cute. zomg. and his "asal diam ey". chatting with syafiq and alfa. my classmate na! and cicakman, na! so, hari raya haji! bekk, bekk. oops, i got to run.