shitfuck. i'm being ridiculous.
look at myself. waiting for his call.
when i know i shouldn't wait for.
maybe what's best is if i just leave.
there's nothing that i am, to be waiting.

like second time, wishing this would be the last. i'd say. it hurts to love asrul. and i'm not going to hurt myself evenmore. that's simply stupid. look i have haikal. he cared enough to be there. and that's one statement, because he's my ex. and the list goes on, with friends by my side. i don't need a boyfriend. nor somebody to love. i'm petite though gorgeous. i am who i am. i love myself, for myself. no guy who want this, then fuck it. i ain't interested, but look out. there'll be a new guy from uptown. fuckingdown. wooots.

It's not like I haven't tried.
Over and over again.
Stupid fights, wrong or right.
Goodbye...