listening to if you leave by nada surf.

if you leave, don't leave now.

please don't take my heart away.

promise me just one more night.

them we'll go our seperate ways.

..i won't let go at any price.

i recently ate dinner. eggs and rice. before that, went out with haziqah. she wanted to ajak me out. so we met at tampines' mcdonald's icecream stall. i told her i was hungry so she suggested long john silver. :) on the way there, i heard someone call my name. i ignored the first time but the second round, it came out loud and clear. i turnt around and saw this guy. the most unexpected guy i never thought i would ever meet again, HAIKAL! my exboyfriend, number 12. oh my cfuk. he was fantabulously handsome. i meant, changed uhh. golden brown hair, his same old topi gayung, awws. i missed him. i was "awwed" for a while and i felt like hugging him. hehhs. and then at long john, we shared a meal. and, i sat beside haikal && we ate at where we did before. then we moved to the arcade. we played car racing. haziqah alone versus me infront of haikal, helping him push the accelerator. then we played airhockey. score 8, 4. haikal alone, lost! :P and then played at toysrus. again, i recalled the sweetest memoirs. and then, we went down to mcd, haziqah ate fries.

i showed haikal the wallet. the wallet he gave me, the same wallet i used since i got it, which was soo valentine's day. and i still kept the card, and i showed it to him. i merely teared, though i exchanged it with a laugh. hehhs. and then haziqah wanted to go home. so we took her until 69 came. after that, haikal and i walked to this void deck where we once sat together before.

we tried to catch up on our past. and oh i remember every little thing. i cried because i missed him. and he was kind enough to console me and wipe away those tears. he said he missed me. and i kept saying that i'm always here. :) haikal spotted this guy filming us. and then, we moved to another place. we walked, and walked. until changkat's rc. we talked and talked. and again, i cried. (i forgot the reason why) and then i cried again. i didn't cry because i was sad, i cried because i was upset, i was angry. he kept saying sorry but i felt he should've felt sorry for himself. gosh. time flied super fast when we were sitting on just one spot. we hugged, cried, kissed - those were the old days! at ard 8 plus, he sent me off to the bus stop. again, the same bus stop held one of the sweet set memoirs. we stood at the same place, with our positions unchanged. when the bus came, he kissed me. and he kissed me on the forehead. that kiss just felt so sad. and i almost caught a tear when i boarded the bus. no one, no one never kissed me on the forehead. and i thought his just meant alot to me. and when the bus moved, haikal blew a kiss. and stuck out his tongue. i laughed alone in the bus.

i went to econ and bought coke. when i went home, dad was yelling at me. :) i really had fun with haikal. and i seek for more. you know, we sang "missing you" and "goodbye my lover" together. oh boy. those were the times. now i totally forgot why i ever let him go. i feel bad but that's the past right? i'm crying profusely right now. i felt like i totally upsetted him that time. but he said he's forgiven and forgotten. i just couldn't believe myself aah. cfuk me! well that's the past. and even he said, we're friends. and hehhs. i'm NOT leaving mamat for haikal.