He's GONE.
Lan is really, really gone.
Muhammad Azzlan bin Zainuddin broke me.
And yes, every break-up hurts.
I cried for hours, and side effects appeared. My visual became blur. thou, I am NOT blind. I'm so sick of crying for him. I've cried for him everyday, and thank God, it's either now or never. I still love him thou. But I won't go back to him, I've swore to pinch myself. Okay, the reason was; he wanted to concentrate on his studies. & he can't balance me with that. I understand, and this time, I didn't hold him back when he wanted a break-up. And puh-lease, I am not a bad girlfriend. I've satisfied Lan in every way he wanted. I still remember him saying, "I fucking love you". And that was after my last kiss from him and the last time he ever said I Love You. I will never treat Lan as a friend. But nor would I leave him. Maybe Hanii was right, maybe I wasn't deservant of him. Neh, I don't believe. And the misbegottens can fuck it to my ass. Someday I hope Lan would come back, but the scores are 10-01. He'd be back to loving his Hakim.
So fucking emo-ish shit.
Don't even know why I have to put a capital letter at the start of a sentence. Anyways, I think I'm following Fred's style. His sayang is his ex, so maybe Lan could be mine. Actually my sayangs could also probably be Dzul, Gab, Ain, Dan or even Wan. Maybe I'm going ESPLANADE this Friday, Ronin's performance. Levan told me not to disappoint him. Maybe Nabilah tagging. Thought of inviting Fred xia. (X Woo Ooh. I think I'm back for the dating game. Besides, right now.. I have Sal and Alid as new guy friends. And Fred too. And Fred is cute. Haha. I'm so moving on.. but..
Lan is really, really gone.
Muhammad Azzlan bin Zainuddin broke me.
And yes, every break-up hurts.
I cried for hours, and side effects appeared. My visual became blur. thou, I am NOT blind. I'm so sick of crying for him. I've cried for him everyday, and thank God, it's either now or never. I still love him thou. But I won't go back to him, I've swore to pinch myself. Okay, the reason was; he wanted to concentrate on his studies. & he can't balance me with that. I understand, and this time, I didn't hold him back when he wanted a break-up. And puh-lease, I am not a bad girlfriend. I've satisfied Lan in every way he wanted. I still remember him saying, "I fucking love you". And that was after my last kiss from him and the last time he ever said I Love You. I will never treat Lan as a friend. But nor would I leave him. Maybe Hanii was right, maybe I wasn't deservant of him. Neh, I don't believe. And the misbegottens can fuck it to my ass. Someday I hope Lan would come back, but the scores are 10-01. He'd be back to loving his Hakim.
So fucking emo-ish shit.
Don't even know why I have to put a capital letter at the start of a sentence. Anyways, I think I'm following Fred's style. His sayang is his ex, so maybe Lan could be mine. Actually my sayangs could also probably be Dzul, Gab, Ain, Dan or even Wan. Maybe I'm going ESPLANADE this Friday, Ronin's performance. Levan told me not to disappoint him. Maybe Nabilah tagging. Thought of inviting Fred xia. (X Woo Ooh. I think I'm back for the dating game. Besides, right now.. I have Sal and Alid as new guy friends. And Fred too. And Fred is cute. Haha. I'm so moving on.. but..
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