i feel so miserable.

i'm crying.. for haikal!
fuck xia. i know it seems stupid to cry over your ex- boyfriend whom you broke up with five months ago.. but i guess what hann said was right.

I WAS STUPID.
i let haikal go. been five months.
we've so moved on. i sound so desperate waiting for his text meseg. my heart feels in the wrong leaving lan behind. haikal has his wani. i have my lan.. but something's wrong in this part of me inside. and it's all something to do with haikal. he's haunting me! his sandals, goodbye my lover, the teddy-bear bags, his teddy bear, the jack card saying "i love u". hees. aah. crying fusely. chatting with sal, and he seems to be good at keeping me down. thx sal.

oh haikal!
i meant lan.
AAH SAL! HELP ME.