you know, it really really hurts..
that you force yourself to trust somebody, even though you have insecurities about it. and you just got to trust him, up to your down-right disbelieves. &&it's so sad, that i've never lied about anything towards him. :/ it really really shuns. apart from being jealous, etc. i fuckcare about anything else in the world. sometimes i feel that i should keep this love for myself. why should i love somebody who doesn't love back, right? pointless discovery, dee. *claps*

i accept truth and the fanciful language i get from everybody. but i cannot continue being like this. i am not a slut, so i'm standing up for myself. i want somebody who wants me(dee). and if you love somebody, why do you have intentions to hurt him/her. i'd rather lose my dimple then being accepted for just a pretty face(though i'm not really saying i have one)

i refuse to expand my inner thoughts using negative forms in my blog.
and now nothing in this world mattered. except for hilmi. unlike those words which describes as a "bestfriend", "true friend" and etc. hilmi was really there for me. hilmi, not hilmy. and i am not ashamed of expressing the thoughts i have to him. thanks, friend.

excuse myself for being a depressant. i am displeased with everything that is swinging around my thoughts. i follow the weather like the rain that pours over the green grass. a sense of being fresh, like starting on something new. i really, really want that now. because it really really hurts to like asrul. would somebody else here, stand up and care. take my hand, and promise me you'd be there?